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| Sun, 01-28-2007 - 11:50pm |
Hi, This is my first visit to the AP&P board. I have my first actual Pdoc visit scheduled for the end of Feb. Until now, I just floated from GP to GP. I have been told that I had depression, anxiety, and panick attack, then fibromyalgia from GPs (had one GP in college, then one as a young adult who died, then a new GP to replace the one that died, then my current GP because I moved to a new state). Recently my current GP said I was Bipolar. I was on Paxil for awhile, then nothing, then the GP who died put me on Lexapro back around 2001. I've stayed on the Lexapro ever since. I have been fearful of dealing with 'it' for so long, but now I am actually looking forward to going to the Pdoc and just dealing with it. I have panick attacks for no reason. I usually just ride it out and try to hide it. I went for about 8 months without driving and very very rarely leaving the house. I was just terrified of driving for awhile. Dont know why. I drive fine now.
I don't know if its a phobia, but I hate hate hate fish. I'm terrified of fish. I have to close my eyes and turn my head if a fish is shown on TV. I hate feet too. Cant stand someones feet touching me. I dont' have a problem with my own feet though! My husband says I have a foot-phobia, but I think its just that I simply dont like feet touching me. My husband will sometimes try to put his foot on my arm or on my hand and I just screaaaaam lol. I usually have to wash my hands after he's done that.
I also always worry. Constantly. I clench my teeth, and I just can't relax my jaw muscles. My back always hurts and muscles are always tense. I always fear being around people, like they can 'see me'. I dunno, I guess I always think people don't like me and I can't stand it, for anyone to not like me. Its always in my mind that they think I'm fat, or stupid, or wierd. Don't know why I think that either. Although I am moderately overweight, I do have a college education. I have a normal life and I seem to interact normally but I feel like inside Im wierd.
Well anyways, like most boards I'll probably be a new lurker and maybe post every once in a while.
Glad to be here!
Anna

Hello, Anna! Nice to have you in our supportive community. You are NOT alone. I have had panic attacks for 36+ years. @ one point in the early '90's I was unable to function. Because of a driving fear that developed after panicking in my car, I was unable to drive 8 minutes to my job & had to quit. It took me 3 years to get behind the wheel after meds, therapy & the small step method.
It is possible to live a good life through better methods of coping. Take a look @ our coping tips & tricks folder below. De-stressing, building your confidence, learning ways to relax & how to deal with catastrophic thinking(worries) can be found. I use the belly breathing, meditation & positive affirmations to quiet my inner critic & get me through the anxiety/panic situations.
We're glad to have you here. Bookmark us to your favorites. Join us in chats. I think you're doing the right thing by seeing the pdoc. Let us know how it goes. Good luck & GBU! (((hugs))) jan
Hi Anna,
Welcome to the board! I can't say that I've been afraid to drive, except after an accident but I'm fine now just hate snow and ice. I have also had difficulty leaving my house still do. I get myself to do it, but it takes a lot of energy. And, oh boy do I know what your talking about when you feel people don't like you. I feel that all the time and always misread others and think the other person hates me or is ANNOYED. I really don't want to be annoying.
The main point I'm trying to make is that you're not alone. This board and the chats (especially the chats) have helped me greatly. Welcome!!!
Take care,
Jessica
Hi Anna,
Welcome! I'm glad you are going to be seeing a pdoc soon and get this sorted out for you. It will sure help to have an appropriate diagnosis and treatment plsn.
This is a really friendly board and the ladies here has been so supportive for me! I have generalized anxiety disorder and am in talk therapy which seems to be working well.
Hope to see you around the board and that your pdoc visit goes well too.
Smiles,
Dee