my big fat panic attack
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| Mon, 02-05-2007 - 12:27am |
My period is due in about 3-4 days, and while I felt quite elated earlier in the day, by the time late afternoon hit, I was in panic mode while walking across large parking lot (it was v cold out, about 15 and windy). I immediately thought I was freezing to death (panic just makes you irrational), then had usual heart attack worry and was glad I had cell phone so could call 911 if need be. My mouth was dry, heart pounding, feelng surreal, a little dizzy, and not quite sure if numbness was from cold or panic. I went into a dept store, wishing I could just be shopping and feeling normal. Terrible sense of doom. I sat on a display table filled with jeans, and tried to calm myself. My heart seemed beating too fast (I am v physically fit, so this sensation feels strange when I am not running hard, bc my heart never does this). Five minutes passed and I was much better, and went to restroom, and other than slightly flushed cheeks, I looked normal---guess I expected to look bizarre. Was a bit weak feeling, and made it to my car. I drove home in a calmer state, but still had feeling of tension---I just wanted to go home--I hated every red light that slowed down this process, but by the time I arrived at my house (about 10 min later), I was myself again, though at various times in the journey felt I might relapse into panic at any moment.
I have had these for years, have been on meds, but haven't had a major attack for probably 4 years or more. Was it a premenstrual thing, my too vigorous exercise yesterday, my anxiety about life in general, the dreary winter, or what? It is something I live with, it is an old enemy that lives in the same town as I do, and that I run into every now and again....

Hi! I haven't seen you in a coon's age;) I am pretty sure your name is Lynn. Forgive me as the senior moments are getting more frequent. LOL Nice to have you, but sure am sorry to hear about the PA): I can relate to many of the symptoms you felt. I used to have the racing heart, but now I shiver & shake. That cold weather would have definitely pushed me over the edge.
I will keep my fingers crossed that this was an isolated occurrence. I think your period probably had alot to do with it. That is a very real trigger for many of the women on this board.
If there's anything stressful going on in your life, dump what you can. Carve out some *me* time. Be kinder to yourself & take it easy by not expecting as much of yourself. You can put this behind you & get back on track.
That is great news that you have been doing so well. That is a hopeful message to others in our community, that aren't quite there yet! Please take care & don't be a stranger. Sending PT's your way. GL & GBU! (((hugs))) jan