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| Wed, 02-07-2007 - 11:29am |
Hello Everyone,
I am 22 years old, for about a year now I have lived away from my family everything I knew to come and live with my boyfriend. When I first moved here we were living with his parents, and then we finally decided to move out. Every since we have moved out (Oct. 2006) I have had very bad anxiety and depression. I obsess over every little thing, and I am constantly living in fear of everything. Everything has been up and down I have had problems in my relationship, then I start questioning everything I have done. I do not know anyone here except my boyfriend and his family. I am home sick, when I go back home to visit my family I miss here. The other day I found out he has been taking pills that are not prescribe to him making me worry even more. Everyone in my family tells me I deserve better, and sometimes I think I do. But when I think about leaving here and everything that I have built on my own I start freaking out. I am scared to be alone and start all over again. There are alot of issues that I have been struggling with with my boyfriend, he is very dependent on his mother, he is just starting to save money (he is 30). The prescription drugs also worry me. I just dont know whether or not this is right for me, do I have to high of expectations?

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Jan: I appreciate your kind thoughts; and I am so aware this morning about how important it is to discipline our thoughts, look for the gratitude, and forgive ourselves and others everyday. One of the defeating self-talks that I am "playing with" this week is switching my thoughts from those that I sometimes pick up that remind me of "failures" and instead focus on what I wish to create now and in my future. I am very appreciative of having a place where people don't whine, but where people actually stand in a space of power for everyone's happiness and strength.
Have a happy day y'all.
Christine
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