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How was everyone today?
| Thu, 02-08-2007 - 10:14pm |
Hoping everyone is having a better day than yesterday!! That's what we all hope for right? Mine are slowly getting better and better. I just have to start accepting the fact that it isn't going to go away overnight like I want it to. I started writing down a list of "good things about today" and it helps. I saw my therapist today and we talked about breathing and relaxation techniques. I was a bit dispappointed since it was mostly stuff I had already known and done. She did give me some worksheets to complete in the next week everytime I have a feeling I don't like. I have to write down the feeling and what caused it and then analyze it to see what are "truthful facts" or what is my emotional side telling me is true. Something like that. Its sort of hard to explain here. Anyway, we will go over them at my next session and it will help me get to know my triggers and how to react to them. I really like my Dr, she is very nice and understanding. I find myself apologizing all the time for getting upset or going off the subject but she seems to be ok with it. She is probably used to it. I swear 45min flies by when you are trying to get all this stuff out. I asked her if she thought I should increase my meds again and she said no. I told her about the whole episode with the 10mg and she said "do you think it was from the med?" and I said yes and she said "did you think BEFORE you took it, that you would have a reaction?" and I said yes and she said "what if it was something else besides the meds, like being on your period, or your anxiety?" I got the point. She asked if my level of anxiety was something I could live with for right now. I told her "well, yeah,I am not going to die from it, I don't like it, but I CAN live with it" so she reccommended I stay on the Paxil 12.5mg CR for right now, use my breathing techniques and relaxation and let the med work, then we will talk about it again next week. She says that she thinks if I increase my meds or change it right now, I will already be prepared to have a reaction and cause it no matter what. She is probably right. SO, I am staying where I am. I have had two nights on the Ativan with 7hrs of sleep both nights. This morning I actually got woke up by the alarm, not by my anxiety. The only thing is the grogginess, it lasts most of the morning till about 11am. Tonight I am going to try to sleep without it since I don't have to get up with an alarm tomorrow. The kids don't have school on Friday and DH is off. That way, if I DO wake up in the night and can't sleep, I will try a half of a pill and see how it goes. Wish me luck for a good night's rest without meds!!! I will let you know tomorrow how it works out. Well, thanks again for all your support and letting me go on and on!! LOL! Big Hugs to all of you and I will be thinking of you!! Erin

All ok on my end, Erin. Thx for asking:)
I am glad that you got some homework from your *t.* I have found that when my *t* does this, it makes me more aware of the bad habits I have developed when dealing with anxiety. It also makes me more accountable for my own recovery.
I have had those *iffy* side effects when first starting a med or increasing the dose. Is it really the med? Or is it just plain old anxiety? I hope you continue to push through & regain your balance. GL! (((hugs))) jan
Hi Erin, it sounds like you have found a great therapist!!
Sheri Ann