I think I overdid it.....
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I think I overdid it.....
| Mon, 02-12-2007 - 7:33pm |
You guys, last night I slept without meds!!! I was so utterly proud of myself!! It was not the BEST night's sleep I ever had but even when I woke up during the night, there was no anxiety or panic. Yesterday was a really great day too, I really think the Paxil is kicking in, so for all you girls out there starting meds, it DOES get better. It totally sucks that it takes a while but it WILL work. I am going into my 5th week tomorrow. Ok, here's the kicker, I was so thrilled about not taking any Ativan last night so I got up, got the kids off to school, showered and picked up grandma for a trip to town!!! Woo Hoo right? Well, even though I slept last night, I either was clenched and tense in my sleep or I slept wrong because I woke up dizzy (which gets worse sometimes when my neck is out) and by 10am had a horrible tension headache. I took two Tylenol but they only dulled it for a couple hrs. Grandma (love her lots!) takes a while to grocery shop and is diabetic so she has to have lunch afterwards, so we were in town a long time and I was exhausted!! I was having twinges of anxiety before we left and being in the stores didn't help. I got all my V-day shopping done for my family though, so that is good. I also bought a relaxation CD and when I got home, I put it in and laid on the couch and relaxed for about 45min with a warm rice bag on my neck and did my belly breathing and muscle relaxation. Even that didn't help much. SO...now I have taken one Excedrin and am hoping it all goes away. The thing is, ever since this anxiety has hit bad this time, I have had to stay away from ALL caffeine, including Excedrin. Well, I took it anyway and I am just praying it won't send me over the edge tonight. I keep telling myself that the caffeine will only make me uncomfortable for a little while at most and that by bedtime I will be fine!!! Please give me words of encouragement!! I know its silly to be scared of caffeine, but for those of you who are sensitive to it with your anxiety, you totally understand right??? UGH!!! As long as the pain goes away I can handle it, I KNOW I can. Thanks for listening, I just needed to get it out! I think of all of you every single day and I remember you all in my prayers, I really really do. My hope is for you to all feel some sort of relief from this, no matter how big or small. Keep trying to be positive!! Love and hugs to everyone and thank you for being you!! Hugs, Erin

Wow Erin!
Sheri Ann