Bad night

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Bad night
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Wed, 02-14-2007 - 2:56am
Avoiding going to bed until my head is so heavy I know i will fall asleep. Last night was really bad. I was tired and fell asleep okay but woke up with my heart feeling like it was going to beat right out of my chest.(and take a hike somewhere) All i could think about was how my son needed to go to a dentist or orthodontist. He has not been for such a long time.Why does he keep forgetting to do that.He even has some kind of stabilizers from previous ortho doctor. I was so concerned that he do that. I feel so responsible. He has to be the one to do it. We have insurance. He is away at college.
Has anyone else ever been so negligent?(sp) I got up and found some old xanax. I took a 1/4 of a pill. It still took me two hours to calm down and get back to sleep. I did relaxation breathing. Yes I have a lot on my mind. I seem to always forget that he needs to have that taken care of.
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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: julie364
Wed, 02-14-2007 - 1:28pm

(((Julie))) I believe you may have posted before. Please forgive me, as I have forgotten your situation & I cannot get the advanced search to work & look up your previous post):


I am sorry to hear how you're feeling. If you have been under alot of stress or there's a major life changing event going on, then finding time for yourself is essential. Do something you like to do. Reading, chatting with a friend, needlework, cooking, etc. Try exercising to burn off this anxiety. Take a walk & visit a museum or the library. It works best to re-focus & distract yourself from the anxious thoughts.


It would seem that the very small dose of xanax is not as effective as it could be. Can you take the full dose as ordered? Do you explain your feelings to the pdoc or *t?* Perhaps they can offer suggestions.


As for your ds, if he's in college, undoubtedly he's old enough to make & keep appointments for himself. I know it's very hard as a mom to let our kids go. But, to live in this life, we all need to be responsible. You are NOT negligent. Try to put your health & personal needs first. When we do things for others that they should be responsible for themselves, we become enablers. Your ds will not learn what society expects of him. Please take care. We want you to feel better. GL& GBU! (((hugs))) jan

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