Bad Feeling

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Registered: 10-02-2004
Bad Feeling
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Thu, 02-22-2007 - 10:08am

Hello To All. I hope you are all doing well.

Do you ever suddenly get a really bad feeling, like you feel like major depression just came over you suddenly without any warning? You were feeling ok and were not even thinking about anxiety or anything being wrong and BAM, you just get that really bad feeling? I use the word depression because it is like I will suddenly get this feeling like total doom and gloom. Nothing in particular sparks it which really bothers me because I cannot know what it is that caused it so I can fix it. The bothersome part is that when it happens, I feel like there are walls up around me and that I cannot do anything at all to get rid of the feeling. Like it is consuming me and nothing I do can make the feeling stop and no one else can help me. Even though they try, it is like no one can help, almost like they are there but I cannot connect to them. Know what I mean? And something else that gets real bothersome is the thought in my mind when I get like that is that nothing in the world matters, like there is nothing important and that everything and everyone is meaningless. I HATE that the most. That is the WORST feeling. It is like I cannot find meaning or importance in anything or anyone during these moments. I know that is not really the case when I am feeling ok, but in those moments it is like I am walled in to that bad place mentally and I cannot access my normal self. Does anyone follow me on this? That is the best way I can describe it.

Kim

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Registered: 10-27-2006
In reply to: kml1220
Thu, 02-22-2007 - 10:57am
Hi Kim! I have only had that feeling once before when I was feeling such anxiety and frustration at my medical condition 3yrs ago that I felt I was alone and just would never get well and again when I had post-partem depression when my son was born. It was a very very scary feeling for me and so out of character that I was scared to tell anyone for fear they would think I was suicidal (which was TOTALLY NOT the case). If I were you I would definately talk to your Dr about this. It could be hormone related, have you ever tracked when you get these feelings on your calendar?? You may be suprised to find that you get them at certain times of the month, around or after your period, or even when you might be ovulating. Anyway, that is just a suggestion and it might help your Dr determine something also. I have a friend who gets these feelings often and has been diagnosed bi-polar. She gets panic and anxiety also but is on some great meds that keep her really leveled out. She gets these feelings the most around her period. Usually it doesn't last long for her, maybe a day or so. I am NOT saying that you are bi-polar, just giving my 2 cents to try and help. It could be something entirely different. Please know that we are all here for you and want to help and support you in this. I hope you can find a solution to this soon, those feeling are so horrible and scary when they just pop into your head like that. Keep your head up hon, we are here!! Hugs, Erin
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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: kml1220
Thu, 02-22-2007 - 12:06pm

(((Kim))) If everyone is being honest, they will admit to feeling like this @ some point in their life. I have felt it & can add that the thought that scares me the most is when I want to throw up my hands & say, *what's the point?* If I allowed myself to focus on that, I *would* be doomed. Once again, these thoughts will not harm you. They never last forever. You are NOT crazy, nor will you go crazy.


We talked about this on another board & we were in consensus that it's a battle to move past the thoughts. I try hard not to let them swallow me up. If I pay less attention to them, all the better. Giving them my time, only gives them more power. Hopefully you have a bag of tricks(coping skills)

 

 


 



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Registered: 10-02-2004
In reply to: kml1220
Thu, 02-22-2007 - 3:00pm

Thanks for writing Erin. The feeling did not last too long. The worst part of it was like 10 mins max and then of course I had lingering feelings all evening. I just hate when it happens. I try to remind myself that it always ends and I always get back to normal, it just feels too real at that moment. In the past, I used to get more of an anxious feeling suddenly out of the blue and I would have the heart racing, nausea, and chills feelings. Now it is like I get this really down feeling instead. It is like one replaced the other.

I am not suicidal either but I can see where someone would think that if you were to tell them about this and they had not experienced it themself. I was afraid to say it too but figured you all understand these things.

I am actually looking into the hormone thing. I think it could be a key to some of this. I will have like 2 solid weeks per month where I am ok lately and then have certain times when this is more likely to happen.

So I do not go into spells where I am really badly down for long periods of time and cannot function. And when I do get real down like that I am aware of what is happening around me, I just feel SOOOO bad at that time that it feels smothering. And when I feel better it is like a huge relief so I feel very thankful it is over but not like into a manic state which I think is what bi-polar people experience usually.

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Thu, 02-22-2007 - 3:20pm

Thanks Jan. YES - I have had that feeling too. It is like you certainly do not want to die or anything but you are like 'what is the point'? Or 'why even go on?' So it is like you sound like you are giving up on life but you are quite the opposite - you WANT to feel good and better and move past this horrible feeling SOOO bad. Like really bad.

Thanks for the reassurance that I am not going crazy. I keep reminding myself that I am always aware of who I am, where I am, and reality is there. It is just so powerful sometimes to have that horrible feeling that it makes you feel like you are in some other world walled off from normalcy. Know what I mean?

Kim

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In reply to: kml1220
Thu, 02-22-2007 - 8:08pm
Sometimes I feel like this right before I get my period. I will just have one really bad day of PMS. All of a sudden I find myself feeling hopeless, thinking dark thoughts, I feel like everything is doomed. Then at some point in the day I will realize it's close to my period and then it kind of makes sense. I will feel relieved but it is hard to shake that feeling.
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Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: kml1220
Sat, 02-24-2007 - 9:03am

Yes, this has happened to me more than once, Kim.

Sheri Ann