Nikki, have you posted?? Where are you?

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Nikki, have you posted?? Where are you?
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Sun, 02-25-2007 - 4:20pm
Nikki? We had you at chat the other night, I just wanted to see how you were doing and if you had gotten any rest??? Please post and at least let us know you are still around and doing ok! Big hugs!! Erin

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Sun, 02-25-2007 - 6:46pm

I was coming to post a shout out myself!

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Sun, 02-25-2007 - 9:30pm
I lurked around the board but wasn't sure what to say. Last night was horrible for me. I watched "The Departed" I had nightmares all night long about being shot and stuff.... Scary!!! I am afraid to sleep.
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Sun, 02-25-2007 - 10:49pm

Ok Nikki, a word to the wise, only watch HAPPY movies!! Comedies!! When I was having my worst time, my DH rented The Guardian and I just couldn't watch it with him. I suspected that it would have too many sad or bad parts and with my emotional state at the time, I just couldn't handle it. Don't feel bad, just don't watch that stuff anymore right now.

Have you been getting any rest besides last night? Did you take the Xanax and did it help you sleep at night??? How is that beautiful baby doing?? You know what I started doing instead of watching stimulating movies?? I started TiVoing "That 70's Show" re-runs and watching them when I feel anxious. I know it sounds silly, but every episode makes me laugh and I always feel better after watching it! Do you have a show you like that you could do that with?? Like Will & Grace or Friends re-runs??? Anyway, its a thought. Its just that sometimes, for me at least, when the anxiety is really bad, its really hard to focus on things like reading and so watching mindless shows you don't have to concentrate on helps sometimes.

Are you having anxiety about sleeping because of the dreams or just because of sleep?? I had the latter for a while, that's why I had to have the Ativan to help me. I didn't want to sleep during the day since I was afraid it would ruin my night rest, then during the night, I had so many wake-ups from anxiety that I just couldn't go back to sleep alot and it was a big cycle. The Ativan really helped me get some much needed rest. I was afraid to take it at first since I am also anxious about trying new meds but I finally decided that I HAD to rest my body. Anxiety just wrecks you and makes you feel weak and shaky so you really need to rest if you can until your meds kick in. I know all this sounds easier said than done but I can tell you that in a few weeks you will feel like a different person when those meds start working. Are you able to make it out of the room yet?? Do you have some sort of security blanket (not necessarily a blanket but an item that makes you feel safe, like a picture or something?) Maybe if you took that with you when you go downstairs, you won't feel as dizzy??? Just another thought. Anyway, I am glad you posted, I have been thinking about you since chat and hoping you were feeling better!! Keep posting, don't just lurk, we have all been where you are in some form or another and I doubt you could post anything that at least one or more of us hasn't thought or said at one time or another. Hang in there! Big Hugs, Erin

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Sun, 02-25-2007 - 11:52pm

(((Nikki))) I am sorry to hear that. I have to avoid intense dramas & news programs. I pretty much have given up chillers, unless I have someone to watch with me & if need be, stay the night. That is sort of sad for a 54 yo woman to say, but it's a trigger for my anxiety & I have learned to be careful. I also learned to forgive myself:)


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Mon, 02-26-2007 - 12:39pm

I went out to my hubby's aunt's house yesterday. Probably like a 30+ minute car ride. I felt like I had to use the bathroom twice, but made it there without an accident. I would simply close my eyes when I felt funny and lay my head back into my pillow. I think that helped. I was able to sleep well last night after watching a little of the Oscars. I even woke up around 9am and have been lying around in bed but not feeling to bad.

I have been having some minor ear aches(more like little pains that go away within a few minutes) and my left leg from the knee down is cooler to the touch than the right and it bothers me... perhaps circulation?

I felt like I was wearing a corset last night but was able to go to Bennigans with hubby's parents without feeling TOO bad. I had to put my head down on the table quite a few times but i was able to do just fine. I had a grilled chicken breast PLAIN. Everything else made me nauseus so I just ate my chicken and drank some OJ.

Anyone else feel like this too the first time they went out in a while?? Should I get used to feeling that way? Like I can participate in life as long as I can put my head down more often than not or as long as i am not walking around?? I cant wait to be Nicole again.

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Mon, 02-26-2007 - 2:23pm

(((Nikki))) This certainly sounds like anxiety. The sensations are a biggie with me. They are very scary & hard to cope with. You did a great job! I am so proud of you & you should be too. As you work through the anxiety, it will become easier. I SWEAR!


There may be times that you need to lay your head on the table. Sheri Ann always goes to the ladies' room & splashes her face with cold water. It is ok to do whatever it takes to get you through the anxiety. You will be the old Nicole again. It never seems to happen soon enough though. Sending lots of PT's! janthwaytogo.gif

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Mon, 02-26-2007 - 2:23pm

First off!! GOOD FOR YOU!!! For being able to go out again!! That is a HUGE deal!!! Its a big deal to some to just go a mile from the house and you made a 30min ride, that is great! Yes, I get the "have to go" feeling when I am anxious as well, then I do like you did, just make myself relax and it will eventually go away. I also had the earache thing, sometimes it was just a quick pain, like a sharp poke in the ear. I of course went to the Dr. and they found nothing wrong. I also get what I call amplified hearing at times, where every noise seems to reverberate thru my whole head at times. Let me tell you, with two kids, that is NOT fun.

I am so glad you have been able to get some rest!! It really does help! And if putting your head down on the table makes you feel better, then by all means do it! I have done that many many times and have actually had to get up and go stand outside and get some air to make it thru the meal but it works. And no, you should not "get used" to feeling this way because you won't ALWAYS feel this way, I promise. The hardest part is that it takes a bit of time to crawl out of this. That is the hardest part for me too. You have taken some major steps towards making that happen!! Take a minute to be proud of yourself even if you feel silly. You CAN do this, it WILL get better!! I had a crappy day yesterday but today is GOOD! I promise you will get to the point that the good days are more than the bad!!! Listen to your body and rest when you need to. I would agree that the cooler leg is probably from circulation, especially if you are laying down alot. Maybe get up and walk around for a while and then check it again??? I am so glad to hear you are doing better than you were the other night. Remember, you couldn't even leave the room w/o getting dizzy and now you have left the house twice. So you know you ARE getting better. Keep your head up (lol) and hang in there!! I will be thinking of you! Hugs, Erin

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Tue, 02-27-2007 - 12:30pm
Thank you both!!! I am looking forward to the chat tonight. I hope I remember it later :)
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Tue, 02-27-2007 - 1:11pm
*sniff sniff* I have to miss chat both nights this week!!! WHAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!! My DD has dance tonight and its my turn to carpool and Thurs is the school carnival which the Parent Club is putting on and I am the secretary so I have to go!!! I will be thinking of all of you! Don't have too much fun without me!!! I will definately be back next week!! Erin
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Wed, 02-28-2007 - 7:40pm

Yes, I have felt like that many, many times.

Sheri Ann

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