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Feel like giving up
| Wed, 02-28-2007 - 11:01am |
I was doing well for a while, but I've had too many bad days and don't know what to do. I'm having small attaks and am really depressed. I'm not sure if I should talk to the doc and up my meds again or what. I'm on paxil cr 37.5 mg. I don't even know where the anxiety is coming from. That is so frustrating. I feel nauseated and have to go to the bathroom alot and it feels like there is a lump in my throat. All my blood work comes back fine, so nothing there. I just need some help right now.

Hi. I know how you feel. I really do. I got like that very recently. I started feeling like I absolutely could not take any more of the anxiety. I started to feel so depressed and down. It was really bad. I did not care about anything that I normally care about it seemed, which upset me and made me even more anxious. I felt totally like I was up against a brick wall and that NOTHING would help me or NO ONE could help me. I felt totally doomed and had no idea where the stupid anxiety was coming from. My stomach gets all messed up, cramps down in low belly too. Loss of appetite right away.
As much as it sucks, the best thing I can tell you is that it will indeed pass and you will feel like your old self again. Think back to other times when you were bad off and then got better. It is nearly impossible to believe that when you feel so down, I know. I never believe it either, but it really will get better. I think for me it is just time, I have to let it run its course kind of like when you get a cold or something (I'd take a cold over anxiety any day - ha ha). Seriously though, try to exercise more to get some natural endorphins going. I know you probably do not feel like it, but it does help, at least for a little while. And call your doc and see about increasing the dosage if you aren't better soon. You can always go back to the lower dose later if you want to. Do not feel bad about that. I know it sucks when you get down really low like this. It seems like nothing could possibly make you feel better and you just want to throw in the towel. Remember that "you" are still "you" though and this anxiety is just overpowering you right now but that underneath it all, you are still your old self and your mind will eventually tire of this anxiety and let you be you again.
-Kim
(((Candace))) WOW! You have had a seige & that is a shame. I know that you will move past this, but it takes longer than we want & it's hard. You are NOT alone.
As I recall, you stopped your klonopin? I am sorry I can't recall exactly what drug it was for breakthrough anxiety? Will you consider taking it again, just to get through this setback? I was reluctant to do it myself, but I did take klonopin twice a day after I had my surgery last summer. There were times I was disappointed in myself, but now have accepted the fact that I needed some extra help.
The lump in the throat feeling is common to anxiety. A friend of mine has panic & always carries a pepsi with her. As her throat gets tight, small sips of the pepsi help her to loosen it up.
I do have ativan for intense times and I have taken a few. They do help a bit with the anxiety but the depression is getting to me. I'm considering upping my paxil from 37.5 to 50 mg. I hope that is the correct decision. I'm doing this because even while the paxil has helped, the anxiety is always lurking. Thank you for your statement that we aren't allowed to give up. That is good to read!
Candace
(((Candace)))
Sheri Ann