I am now employed,,yiiikes!

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Registered: 08-07-2003
I am now employed,,yiiikes!
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Sat, 03-03-2007 - 2:54am

Soon after I posted for the first time in a while I got a call from a temp agency about this job. (Tues). I started on that same day, that's why I haven't really been around.

My dh has an interview on Mon for a city job. So things seem to be rolling in the right direction. My job is temp-to-hire and my first week went pretty well. I picked up quickly and jumped in. I am working in the patient intake department verifying insurances and other clerical duties. The job duties are practically second nature to me.

I am really good at hiding my anxieties and fears. I sometimes feel so nervous about talking to people and how I look, and how I sound, and what I say, etc...The worries go on and on. I hate talking to people one on one because I feel like I have to be constantly moving. If I am not talking I am fidgeting with my hair or shaking my leg. I usually feel like a rubber band that is being stretched to the limit and is about to pop.

Ok, see I have just shared what I keep inside my head and in my mind. It seems like a little battlefield in my head all day long. On the outside I look in control, calm, and professional and I hope to keep it that way.

Oh, by the way, my new job is at a mental health hospital. They do inpatient and outpatient mental health services. Sometimes I laugh to myself, I came so close to being a patient in this hospital a couple of times. At least I know I have some counselors and psychiatrist really close by at all times. LOL.

You guys have been so sweet and helpful. I have been dealing with anxiety, low self-esteem and all that stuff for a long time and it feels good to have someone to share with.

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Sat, 03-03-2007 - 12:03pm

Sounds like things are coming together for you. That is great news. Please take care of YOU. Keep in touch! (((hugs))) jan


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Registered: 10-27-2006
Sat, 03-03-2007 - 10:30pm
Congratulations on your job!! That is fantastic!! It sounds like things are really looking up for you and your DH!!! Isn't it funny how good we get at looking cool, calm and collected on the outside compared to what is really going on??? I always sort of laugh at that. Then I think that people who know I am dealing with anxiety must think I am faking it since they always say they can't tell. I think they mean it as a compliment but then there is that little voice wondering if they are sincere. But we keep on keeping on don't we? I actually think you will continue to love your job. And even though you are doing clerical stuff, you will be shocked at how much you will learn about all the mental illness stuff. I learned so much about the medical field just being a secretary for an internal med Dr. I am really glad this opportunity came up for you! Keep posting and let us know how it goes! Hugs, ERin
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Registered: 03-22-2003
Mon, 03-05-2007 - 9:05am

Congratulations!

Sheri Ann