Why why why????

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Why why why????
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Wed, 03-07-2007 - 10:47am
Why does this anxiety rear its ugly head just when you think you are doing so great??? I had the worst night last night!! I woke up at about 12:30 and felt sick to my stomach, my neck hurts from it being out all weekend and so of course it all culminated into a PA!!! I haven't had one in weeks!!! I know it is because I have been so busy this last week and a half and on top of that, I am having that TOTM!! I have been dizzy from that and having hot flashes. ACK!!! I had even taken 1/2 an Ativan before I went to bed because I could feel little flutters of anxiety after I got home from working. I have only taken that one other time in the last few weeks. My neck gave me so much pain over the weekend, I literally cried when the chiropracter had a cancellation on Monday. I went in, she fixed it, I thought, but I am still having alot of pain. I am going to call and see if I can get in AGAIN. I don't know what else to do, I am taking Tylenol constantly since I can only take Ibuprpfen once in a while (with the Paxil, if I take it too often,I get lots of bruises for some reason) and I was putting a warm rice bag on my neck and then following it with this stuff called BioFreeze (its from the chiro, kind of like Icy-Hot) not at the same time though. Anyway, I either had the rice bag too hot, or too much Biofreeze over the weekend because now the back of my neck and down a bit lower feels like I have a sunburn!! Its not red, just sore and sensitive to touch. I hope I didn't damage some nerves or something!!! So that, on top of feeling sick, kept me up for quite a while. I think I nodded off around 3am or so, only to get up again at 6am to get the kids off to school. I want to go lay down again but I am afraid that if I nap, I won't be able to sleep again tonight. I don't get it, the Ativan has always worked before and a half tab is perfect for me. A whole one makes me groggy into the mid morning. But I still had the shakiness, the tingling and the fluttering and palps. I just hate feeling like this again when I thought I was getting better. I know its probably normal for this to happen but it still frustrates me! I know my T would say to work through it rather than trying to up my meds to block it out. I am trying really hard to do that. Thank God I have an appt with her tomorrow. Please lend me your support in this. Is this how it will always be? Feeling pretty good for a while then it hits you out of nowhere? I had a REALLY busy week last week but rested over the weekend because of my neck. Maybe I am just doing too much. I haven't been this busy since before Dec, when my anxiety hit full force. Thanks for listening guys. Hugs Erin
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Wed, 03-07-2007 - 10:57am
So sorry to hear that, Erin. I have no words of wisdom, other than take good care of yourself with rest, nutrition, relaxation, etc. I'm in the same boat, but it's so good of you to share so we can all benefit from the postings of each other's experiences. I'm asking myself the same thing, why do I have to have this burden? Why now? Why me? I want my life back! Hang in there, it WILL get better, so they tell us, and we have to believe that. Hugs back, AJ
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Wed, 03-07-2007 - 12:27pm

(((Erin))) Just when I'm doing good, I relapse, too.

Sheri Ann

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Wed, 03-07-2007 - 12:51pm

(((Erin))) What a shame! It seems that when it rains, it's pours. These concerns

 

 


 



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Registered: 01-07-2007
Wed, 03-07-2007 - 1:23pm

Hey Erin...big hugs to you I understand how you feel...my anxiety usually jumps up alot when I get my period, and i get dizzy and lightheaded alot, I have found that some vitamin supplements can help...do you take any kind of B vitamin? that might help a bit...as for your neck I would def see your chiro again...I see one once a week and used to work for him and usually with people who are in pain he would see a few times a week, and just from my working experience its totally normal to still have some pain or even a little more after the first couple of adjustments...the more you go, the better you will feel so def try and get in there...your muscles might also be really tense if your anxiety is kicked up too...as for the redness you might allergic or something to that biofreeze stuff...that is what it sounds like...have you ever heard of an ointment called Unkers? I have to order it online I know its kind of hard to find, but its this great natural medicated ointment that you can use like icy hot and even use it like Vicks for colds and stuff...so see if you can find some of that and if you have a heating pad, try putting that on your neck too...I am so sorry that you are not feeling well and I totally understand the feelings...having your period is hell when you have this problem i know...and if you feel like you need to take a nap, then take one! I always feel guilty if i feel like I have to, but your body heals when you sleep so if you need to then allow yourself to rest, and maybe if you dont have to do alot during the day consider taking that whole Ativan at night so you can sleep....just eat a really good breakfast the next day if you are not too sick to your stomach i know that feeling all to well too lol...and if you stomach keeps bothering you i will tell you a couple of herbs that have helped me alot...you can find them in capsules in a health food store or a grocery store that has natural and organic foods in them....one is Ginger capsules and the other is called Slippery Elm....they have helped my stomach ALOT my naturopath has me on them....I hope you feel better soon keep me posted...much luv and hugs

Krista

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Wed, 03-07-2007 - 1:32pm

Hi Erin,
Setbacks bite! You feel "normal" one day and then the next, you feel that ominous feeling of anxiety. I'm sorry you have had to deal with that pain in the neck...literally, LOL. It seems you are into natural remedies, so here are a few that really work. You probably already know of them. Try Passionflower for your anxiety, it's a natural beta-blocker and will help you feel calm.The tincture or tea would be better than the capsules. Try Hypericum (St.John's Wort) oil straight on your pain. Or if your pain is from an injury, try Arnica cream and Arnica homeopathic together. You can buy all of this at a health food store. These remedies have not been reviewed by the FDA, so be sure to check with your doctor before trying any medication or herbal remedy.

I hope you feel better soon. If you need a natural relaxer right away try the 4-7-8 breathing method. Put the tip of your tongue on that ridge of tissue behind your teeth, breathe in (around your tongue) for 4 seconds, hold for a mental count of 7, then blow out (around your tongue, lips pursed) for 8 seconds. Do that for a total of 3-4 breaths. This will trigger your body's own natural relaxation.

Best wishes,
Amy

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Wed, 03-07-2007 - 10:21pm
Thanks to all of you who posted or read my post. I am doing a bit better now, although not as well as I would like. I did go to the chiro and I was 'out' again, plus I have some muscles in my shoulder that are spasming and all knotted up. I was literally crying in the office when she was trying to work some of it out. It hurt so bad!! She felt really bad but told me that if I leave it like that, it would be so much worse. She then referred me to a massage therapist who luckily had a cancellation today!! I have never ever had a massage before! Always thought about it but its one of those things you just don't feel justified spending the extra $ on. Well, I did today! It hurt for a while, but was also wonderful. She really worked me over. She used to work for a physical therapist AND a chiropracter before she got her license, so I felt really confident that she knew what I was going thru. Her office is awesome and the massage room is beautiful and VERY dimmly lit with candles and nice music. It was very relaxing when it didn't hurt! Anyway, they told me that I needed to stop using heat and stick with ice. The inflammation is bad and they said no more heat. And yes, I probably did burn my skin with the rice bag. I know several times I had it too hot and also, I was not putting anything on as a buffer between the bag and my skin. My chiro says that with heat AND ice, that is a big no no. Always use a towel or cloth in between. Both the chiro and the MT don't think it was the bio freeze since I didn't use the two things together. So, it is going to take a couple days of taking it easy and icing to get me feeling better. I just hate how messy my house is getting with two kids and a DH. DH works hard and is tired too but is also not very understanding. I know he wonders who he will be coming home to, the happy wife he married or the lump on the couch in her pj's. He has never said that but that is what I imagine. He still doesn't get that the anxiety can just BE there sometimes, without a precurser. I guess I shouldn't say that. I KNOW it was caused by a culmination of doing so much. Sheri Ann, you were right, I was over doing it because I felt obligated to make the carnival a success. Even though I love helping the kids, I am going to have to make the sacrifice and not be an officer next year. I already decided that. I will help, but only when I am able, and with out the obligation. I makes me so mad to think that I might not be able to take on as much as I used to. It just sends my body into sensory overload. I might not feel bad mentally, but by the end of the day I am a shaking mess. This crap sucks!! Sorry, I am very mad and depressed today. I really thought I was doing so good. In fact, I know I was. I am going to take your advice Jan, and try to be more aware of what I do in advance. I will just have to start asking myself if I think it will cause anxiety and if the answer is YES, then avoid it. Thanks to everyone for your advice about herbals. I do take a vit B supplement most days and it does seem to help with the energy. As for the other stuff, my aunt has suggested the ginger capsules and I will probably try them, I am sick of TUMS. I am a bit wary sometimes of herbals so I try to be careful and always ask my NP first. Thank you all so much, I am going to try to have a slow restful morning tomorrow after I get the kiddos off to school, then I have my *T* appt in the afternoon. I am on the tail end of my period (thank God) so that should be easing up as well. Thank you for all the positives thoughts!! Hugs, Erin