Why is this happening to me again?! :(

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Registered: 03-08-2007
Why is this happening to me again?! :(
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Thu, 03-08-2007 - 11:38am

Hi fellow ivillage members this is my 1st post on this site, I thought i would ask for advise in my struggle with cooping with my panic disorder cause i feel the world crashing around me, I am the key that holds my family together i take care of everything. But, recently on our way home from a visit to see our families, my husband had to pull over because i was basically had it put in my mind that i was going to stop breathing and die.
I have not had a panic attack in 5 years, and I am so afraid of the attack itself i try to do anything to prevent it. But, they are occuring more and more. I seeked early treatment with my Dr. but he gave me medicine that makes me so out of it, and I hate that feeling. I do not feel i am all here anymore, Im scared to leave the house, i freak out when i drive and in the middle of the night I Wake up gasping for air.
Everyone has stress I never expected mine to come back because I was happy and content with my life, and now all im worried about is when the next attack is going to happen.
We are military so i do not know anyone here, i am open to any comments/concerns anyone has.

Sincerely, Shelly

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Registered: 08-16-2005
Thu, 03-08-2007 - 2:06pm
i feel your pain shelly. my panic will go away and come back when i'm least expecting it. i feel SO out of control. i just had a panic attack at work. seems lately when i'm pmsing mine comes out in full force. my heart races, i feel sick at my stomach and i just want to escape to a safe place, which is not work! ha if you were at your families, maybe that brought it on? visiting relatives sometimes stresses me out. if there was alot of commotion and interacting it can be overwhelming at times. i am super stressed out at home with a 13 yr. old and a 1 yr. old and a bf who acts like a child himself. i started getting a bad headache earlier and it brought my panic out - i almost left work. i just got xanax from a new doctor after years of dealing with these with just benadryl! it sucks bad i know!! now i'm afraid to take my first xanax because i'm still breastfeeding and because i hate taking things for the first time for fear i don't know how i will react to it. i'm AFRAID to take an anxiety med - the most widely one prescribed. now that's crazy! ha i hope you are feeling better now. but i know how that feels to just have reality escape you. i have done it too. it makes me feel angry that i have to go through it. and i cannot control it. it's hard for others to understand who don't go through it. do you ever get headaches or neck pain when you're stressed? i do and i hate that too. i wished i was a totally laid back person which nothing ever bothered me. i also had my panic go away for years to come back again. sorry you're going through this again. :(
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Registered: 10-22-2001
Thu, 03-08-2007 - 3:23pm
Hugs Shelly,
My ds has these.
He is doing much better since he has been allowed to home-school.
My heart goes out to you.
Do you think it might be because you are in a new environment?
It must be very hard and lonely...even frightening for you.
Just know you aren't ALONE hon.
Maybe you need to change your medication...especially if you feel you aren't comfortable with the way it makes you feel or possibly it's the dosage.
I would talk to your doctor and share your concerns...maybe even take a copy of your message here and let him read it.
It describes your symptoms and possibly it would help him in your treatment.
Take care hon...I have co-workers who have to deal with similar feelings and it is not easy for them.
They have issues with driving and are having problems sleeping.
Hope this helps.
Nightangel
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Thu, 03-08-2007 - 3:47pm

I recently came down with a panic disorder. Like you, everything in my life was pretty darn good, and they seemed to come out of the blue. It got so bad that I couldn't sleep and things spiralled downward from there.

One thing I learned is that with that fight or flight reflex, sometimes you are better just giving in to the panic attack and going with it. Your fear of it has a lot of power over you. If you can try to intellectualize it rather than react to it emotionally that helps. It is pretty hard to do when you are in the middle of one (LOL) but I found that keeping a journal and writing about the physical symptoms while I was experiencing them really helped a lot.

Other things that helped me, besides medication, were therapy, church, meditation, yoga, exercise. I also gave up caffeine and alcohol - caffeine because it made the insomnia and anxiety worse, and alcohol because I went on an antidepressant.

If you haven't read the Anxiety and Phobia Workbook by Edmund Bourne, you might want to get that.

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Registered: 01-03-2007
Thu, 03-08-2007 - 4:40pm

I am so sorry that you are going through a trying time right now! ((HUGS!)) I have anxiety and panic disorder and I know exactly how you feel!! It is so hard to deal with it and thinking about it can just make it worse!! If you ever need to talk....just email me!!!


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Registered: 03-08-2007
Thu, 03-08-2007 - 7:07pm

thank you so much for your support its good to know theres people out there to confine in since I am new to this area, i appericate your reply and thanks so much.
Have a great Day.

Sincerely, Shelly

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Registered: 03-08-2007
Thu, 03-08-2007 - 7:20pm

Thank you so much for your support. ah, i know the feeling of being afraid of new meds. I tryed a medication the last time, i had Pa and it made me feel like i was in a box it was terrible, so i quit taking it and had to deal with it without anything.
This case is different and i hope i can grasp reality and move on.
I took xanax when i started having these in 1999 it helped alot, but it makes me very sleepy but it did help.
Again thank you for your reply and i hope you get better also!

Sincerely, Shelly

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Registered: 03-08-2007
Thu, 03-08-2007 - 7:22pm

Thank you so much for your support i appericate it so much, I hope you have a wonderful night.

Sincerely, Shelly

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Registered: 03-08-2007
Thu, 03-08-2007 - 7:26pm

Jan thank you so much for the warm welcome and advise in my post.
today was actally a good day for the most part i hope i can grasp reality and just move on. i do plan on attending the chat tonight. again thank you for the support and kind words.

Sincerely, Shelly

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Registered: 03-08-2007
Thu, 03-08-2007 - 8:25pm
This is my 1st time on the mess. board too, I read your post and it blew me away to know that I am not the only one. I have been trying to cope with this for awhile now and it just keeps getting worse. I had no idea there where other people to talk to about this that didn't think I was just plain crazy.
Donna

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