Bad day....chickened out...

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Registered: 10-27-2006
Bad day....chickened out...
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Tue, 03-20-2007 - 12:23pm

Well, I chickened out AGAIN with my med increase. Last time I tried to increase from the Paxil 12.5 time release to the generic 20mg, I only made it 4 days, this time I only made it 3. I was prepared to handle it if my anxiety levels went up, which they did a bit but that was ok, I have my Ativan for that, it was the 24hr nausea that I couldn't take. And it wasn't anxiety nausea either, it was real nausea. It got so bad yesterday that I threw up last night. I had a horrible night with almost no sleep, even with the Ativan but I do feel a bit better this morning. So, I chickened out and went back to the 12.5mg. I am doing Ok on that dose so I guess I shouldn't complain. On top of that, yesterday morning I had a sneezing fit (like 10 sneezes in a row) and it made my rib inflammation come back, so when I was throwing up, it felt like I was being stabbed in the ribs, hurt so bad!!!! ICK!!! I am so sick of all this crap! I am really tired today but I am getting myself up and out of the house to run some needed errands. Maybe after that I will feel better. I still don't have any appetite really but I know I need to eat something. I am dreading calling my NP to tell them that I went back to the 12.5mg, I am sure she thinks I am a total freak by now. I keep thinking I need to switch Drs to someone who I feel understands this more. I feel like she is giving me pats on the head when I go in and just thinking "oh, that Erin" UGH!!! Then I end up apoligizing the whole time about how freaked out I get!! I hate it! I feel like such a weiner when that happens!!!

Anyway, I just needed to vent I guess. I hope I feel better again now that I am back to my regular meds. Send me some PT's please!!! Hugs, Erin

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Tue, 03-20-2007 - 1:04pm

(((Erin))) Sorry to hear this): This is merely a setback. With anxiety disorders, setbacks are common. As they say, it is what it is;)


I have had health care professionals around that didn't *get* it. It is counter-productive. I have a great internist now that understands my anxiety & reassures me, but in a matter-of-fact way, so I don't feel patronized. Finding people like that is hard. But, if you feel you need someone more supportive, make a change.


In a few days, maybe you'll be in a good place & be able to increase the paxil again. I have done that. Just a few days to get my anxiety under control & make sure there's no extra stressors. I have told before of taking my meds in the doctor's waiting room because of fear. Also, I have stayed with my mom or a friend when I was first started on a med. I don't apologize for my behavior or call myself a chicken/wiener. I have a chemical imbalance. It is a flaw in my chemistry. NOT my character! Be kinder to yourself, gf. We all have been in your shoes.


You can depend on my PT's! GL & GBU! jan