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Registered: 10-21-2006
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Sat, 03-24-2007 - 7:44am

It's funny how my moods are like such a roller coaster - of course, I guess I could be PMSing, its a week until I'm due for my monthly ladytime. Right now I think I am doing surprisingly well for not having a job - ... Well, technically I have one, but I'm not getting any hours there. I've had 3 interviews and didn't get hired for the first two. Third interview I decided to avoid saying anything about having a kid to see if they would hire me then. By next week I should know. The manager is deathly ill (I called yesterday, he said he hoped to get to me this weekend).

It's funny because I woke up feeling fine, came downstairs and saw that my b/fs mom did laundry, but just threw my clothes on the couch. She folded her son and my sons clothing, but just chucked mine on the couch, now it's all wrinkled. Something like that really irritates me. I was going to mention it, now I think I'll just keep all my dirty clothes separated from the rest of the family's so that I don't have to deal with it anymore. A little thing like that got me frazzled all morning. It's pathetic!

Not really much else to update with. I'm broke as hell, the b/f started a new position at work and he's much happier with that. but we get to spend even less time together, so I still feel bleh about it. Hopefully I get this job, I will be waiting anxiously by the telephone. If I don't get it, I'm going to really start to wonder what the heck is wrong with me.

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Sat, 03-24-2007 - 11:18pm

WB! I am sorry to hear that you're having trouble finding the right job. IVillage has an active Job Search Support board. Here's the link: http://messageboards.ivillage.com/iv-wdjobsupport


Do you have something to fill in your time when your bf is @ work? Can you take the baby & go for walks, to the playground or even to the library? Finances probably prevent you from having money to spend on leisure activities, but there are things you can do for free. I have had plenty of times when money was tight & it is really hard. Let me send you some virtual hugs. You deserve them!


How is your anxiety?

 

 


 



iVillage Member
Registered: 10-21-2006
Sun, 03-25-2007 - 4:23am

Yes going outside is definitely a great relief - but it's been kinda rainy and muddy. This summer will be so much fun with my son, though. I have so many fabulous ideas of great things to do - walks, swims, picnics, etc... :)

And thanks for the job link, I will check it out. My limited hours really screw me over before I get started generally.

I did talk to her about it yesterday, but she insisted that they were wrinkled before they came out of the dryer. I didn't push it after that because I didn't see the point. I'm sure they would have been less wrinkled had they been folded, but whatever. I went upstairs and cried for awhile from the frustration of wanting to move out but being financially unable to. I feel calmer today.

Overall, my anxiety is really not that bad - it comes in waves, I thought I was doing quite well for awhile, but the constant rejection from jobs combined with everything else does make one a little frustrated. I still have my ativan, I use half a pill mainly to sleep occasionally (like last night). I've gotten considerably better at calming myself down. Whew!~ Ty for the advice. I'm going to check out that link now, I'll let you know if anything comes of it. ^_^

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-22-2003
Sun, 03-25-2007 - 7:14pm

Good luck with the job hunting!

Sheri Ann