Downhill slide, I'm losing it

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Registered: 07-08-2005
Downhill slide, I'm losing it
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Mon, 03-26-2007 - 12:53pm
I don't know what my problem is all of a sudden. But I'm just so aggrivated and fed up with everything, particularly my kids. I feel like I'm getting angrier and angrier at them. I'm afraid I'm going to step too far one day and hurt my babies. I've never spanked my youngest more than once in a punishment, but I got so irritated I spanked her 4 times (on the diaper, not on bare skin, never on the face or body). I yell at my kids nearly all the time. I try my hardest to raise the right, but it seems like all my efforts gets thrown back into my face. I know they're young, but still, I'm here everyday working my butt off and I get nothing in return to show that I'm succeeding at anything. My oldest constantly lies to me, she's started hurting my youngest. My youngest is hitting the terrible two's so I'm sure you ladies get whats going on there. I try, really hard, to keep this place clean. And my attempts are always futile, my house is a pigsty and I hate it. I feel like I don't do any good at any of this stay at home mom or even mothering stuff. Most days I seriously want to just crawl under a rock and die. I don't feel worth much of anything. In fact I'm inclined to believe that the whole family would be better off without me. I have considered leaving and letting Dave raise the kids. It's not like I'm doing any good anyway. Dave says I'm always mad or irritated and that I don't seem like I'm happy at all with where I'm at. I don't know.
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Registered: 03-25-2007
Mon, 03-26-2007 - 6:12pm
Hi
I don't know what to say to help, but I feel your pain. Just know that you are not alone. I am hoping you won't try to hurt yourself, but if you're thinking that's an option, please get help. We have all had horrible days and I know with anxiety, I can be very irritated over almost nothing. If it's more than that, please see someone who can help. Try to believe things will get better.
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Registered: 03-26-2003
Mon, 03-26-2007 - 7:32pm
I understand how you feel--had many days like that when kids were small,etc, except wasn't SAHM at the time, but raising children is just tough tough tough no matter how you slice it. Who can feel sweet and lovely looking at piles of housework, crying kids and all that stuff? I couldn't, and who should? My only thought is to take a break, get a sitter, something to have some free time. Then spend some of that time figuring out what kind of mom you want to be (which may mean getting some help caring for the kids for a few hours a week, if you can manage it), and what kind of clean house you want (also may mean getting help for that). I do not think you are a bad mom at all, just one who wants so much to do her best that it's overwhelming you. Try to get some downtime for yourself, soon...peace,lyn
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Registered: 03-11-2004
Mon, 03-26-2007 - 10:13pm

I am sorry to hear about your anger & frustration, Ashley.

 

 


 



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Registered: 05-27-2003
Mon, 03-26-2007 - 10:59pm

oh ashely:(

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Tue, 03-27-2007 - 7:23pm

(((Ashley))) I'm sorry to hear this is happening :(

Sheri Ann