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| Mon, 04-02-2007 - 2:13pm |
Okay so here is my venting about my crazy phobia...ever since I was so sick before all my adrenal gland stuff every time I hear about or someone close to me gets a stomach thing I start wigging out because I am scared to death about that mess...its so weird I know but that is my freaky thing probably because when I was so sick for over three months it affected my stomach more than anything...my husband went out of town really early yeseterday morning for the Nascar race and came home early this morning, but he said he woke up at around 400 in the morning and threw up a bit, and then tried to eat something on the way home this morning and threw up again...he says his stomach doesnt even hurt and he thinks its something he ate last night but ever since he got home I have been spraying the house down with Lysol and washing everything...he has been sleeping most of the day and I know I will be sleeping on my sofa tonite (I always sleep on the couch when I get sick or if he is not feeling well so I don't get anything and vice versa if I am sick, and the strange thing is he NEVER gets sick...this is only the second time since we have been together in 8 years that he has been ill) and I know that if I am going to get it, I am going to get it since we live together but I feel like such a witch and so insensitive because I am freaking out about it...I am already anxious about starting work again next week even though its only going to be a couple afternoons a week, and now I am scared that I am going to get whatever he has so basically this whole week my anxiety is going to be through the roof. I thought i had a touch of something a couple of weeks ago, but wasn't throwing up or anything. All I wanted to do was tear the house apart and clean today after he came home, but he is sleeping and I planned on cleaning tomorrow anyway...I just feel so horrible feeling this way when I know he doesn't feel well...is there something wrong with me? Does anyone else have this phobia? I feel so dumb so I very rarely tell anyone about my crazy fears but you guys have always been so supportive...so that is my venting for today...I will probably be posting alot this week...thanks for listening!!
Krista

you're not the only one with weird worries. i got very sick with a stomach virus about 2 months ago. That's the day i quit smoking. let me tell you, i've had the flu before, i've had bronchitis w/asthma, sinus & ear infections(at the same time) & still smoked until THAT VIRUS. i thought i was dying. i went to the hospital only for them to tell me to take massive doses of immodium. needless to say, i'm still here. but ever since then, whenever i feel the slightest bit nauseated or my stomach is gurgling, i go into panic mode because i never, ever want to be that sick again. it's the only time i've ever been so sick that i didn't care whether or not i smoked! so, no, you're not alone.
Lynn
Thanks Janis...okay I have the same phobia you do I was wondering if there was a name for it or not...and I do need to talk to my therapist about it I have mentioned to her that I have a severe fear of going places for fear I will get sick because of how sick I was for so long, but I have a really bad problem with the whole stomach stuff, I always have even when I was little my grandma told me I would freak out if I got sick with something like that. Deep breathing helps me alot, and keeping busy...i tore the house apart this morning and cleaned it and did three loads of laundry and now I am wore out but calmed down more than I was before, so I guess that is a good thing. I just feel like I want to go and disinfect everything everyday for a week lol...my husband is feeling much better today and he was eating fine last night...he told me he said I don't know if I was sick or not or if it was something I ate...Im pretty sure he had something though...I do need to go do a couple of things by thursday so now I am freaked out I am going to get sick and not be able to do the things I need to...I don't know I guess it will calm down in a couple of days...so right now I am doing things to calm myself down and trying to stay calm...I just thank you and everyone else for letting me know I am not alone....I am going to try to come to chat tonite if im not worn out lol...right now I am tired and my back is killing me from sleeping on the couch last night...i was nice and let my husband have the bed all to himself...thank you again!!
Krista
Well, considering the fact that I began to fret when I saw the one of the ivillage ads called "Ovarian Cancer: the Silent Killer," come right up on my screen when I signed on, I can hardly feel that your phobia is odd or silly. I worry about getting illnesses too---have posted a couple of things lately bc have checkup on Friday and thought about cancelling out on it---I cannot stand the stress!! (But will keep the appt, though have thought about hitting the bar beforehand..haha)
Yesteday I was bitten on the butt by a bug near a portapotty--it has crossed my mind that I will probably get dysentery or some other weird illness bc this bug surely has been feeding on some nastiness---OK, see I do this too, and then I get real, and think about all the other junk I am exposed to everyday that could also make me ill, yet it doesn't, and I try to talk myself out of these fears. It is difficult to always do this, esp if you are told you need medical tests to rule out stuff, and you just imagine the worst possible scenario. And you have had a scare, so it is easy to feel that it might happen again. But that doesn't mean that it will. Have you seen a doc lately? Maybe it would be good to go and just get reassurance that your situation is under control. I hope you feel better soon, and that you do not have any further illnesses...peace,lyn
(((krista))) I am the same way.
Sheri Ann