Saw the Dr

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Saw the Dr
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Wed, 05-26-2010 - 9:50pm

I DIDN'T GET THE NEWS I WANTED BUT AT LEAST I KNOW WHAT I'M DEALING WITH. SINCE I REALLY DON'T HAVE ANY STROKE RISK THEY DECIDED TO DO MORE TESTS. SHE WANTS TO ELIMINATE EVERYTHING. SHE THINKS ITS POSSIBLE THAT WHEN I PANIC IT CAUSES MY BLOOD PRESSURE TO PEAK AND THAT CAUSED THE STROKES. SHE WANTS ME TO GET MY PANIC UNDER CONTROL!!


I DO HAVE A CYST ON THE BACK OF MY BRAIN. SHE IS SCHEDULING ANOTHER MRI TO SEE IF ITS GROWING. THIS WILL HAVE TO BE CHECKED OCCASIONALLY THE REST OF MY LIFE. SHE DID ASSURE ME THAT IT HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH THE STROKES AND AT THIS TIME WAS DOING NO HARM. ITS SCAREY KNOWING ITS THERE THO.


MY ANXIETY HAS CALMED AND I KNOW I JUST HAVE TO DEAL WITH ALL OF THIS. I KNOW THERE ARE GOING TO HAVE TO BE SOME LIFE STYLE CHANGES AND THIS ISN'T GOING TO BE EASY OR QUICK. ITS MY HEALTH THO SO I HAVE TO REALLY WORK ON BEING MORE POSITIVE.


THANKS EVERYONE FOR HELPING GET THROUGH THIS.

BOOP


Three grand essentials to life are...something to do, something to love and something to hope for.

BOOP


Three grand essentials to life are...something to do

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Registered: 12-25-2004
In reply to: booplady44
Thu, 05-27-2010 - 8:58am

Thanks for letting us know how it went. I'm sorry that you didn't get the news you were hoping for. I can only imagine how you must be feeling, being told a scary thing and then being told that you have to get your panic under control to avoid the scary thing.

I've been trying to figure out how to get a hold of you off the board. Your account is not set up to accept emails, so I'm not sure what other avenue to take. So here's my email address. Send me a note and I'll send you my phone number.

transgressorsgrace@gmail.com

((((Hugs))))

Jess

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Registered: 10-12-1998
In reply to: booplady44
Thu, 05-27-2010 - 11:30am

Oh gosh, I am sorry about the news. You know what you need to do, so keep working in that direction. About a year ago I downloaded an interesting article on acceptance, I'll see if I can find it again and post the link. I found it very helpful when combined with Dr. Weekes philosophy.

I, too, have anxiety driven blood pressure issues. It's embarrassing to admit, but I haven't been to the doctor in way too long because of it. Between the anxiety and the agoraphobia, when I get to the dr's office my blood pressure spikes- then the staff informs me that I will have to stay until it comes down, which triggers massive issues with the agoraphobia (to be held against my will) and my BP goes up even higher!

Do you track your BP at home? I have found this quite helpful, and so have the dr's I've seen- though one internist warned me not to do it obsessively, but just once or twice a day to monitor. I stopped doing it for a while, when the anxiety was really bad (and I didn't care enough to do it), and just started doing it again about a month ago because I need to track it on a calendar so I can go back to the Dr and show them that most of the time it is under control.

Can you exercise? Does your doctor feel you are healthy enough for that? That has always been one of the best ways for me to control anxiety and bring blood pressure down. For me it has to be at least an hour a day, seven days a week. Even if you just walk an hour a day, that might help.

Did your doctor bring up calcium, magnesium, and potassium? If not, ask her if those are safe for you to try (they aren't for everybody). After my DD was born I had terrible issues with HBP and none of the doctors could figure it out (I realize now it was panic), but one doctor gave me a brochure on HBP that discussed those supplements as potentially helpful. I take them everyday now and can tell the difference if I forget for a day or two. Just having those everyday brings my BP down about 10 points. They surely aren't the cure-all for those of us with anxiety driven HBP, but I'll take all the help I can get! I also swear by taking half of a B-complex vitamin daily; B's can be very helpful for stress and anxiety. But again, you need to talk to your doctor and find out if it is safe for you to try these, if you are interested.

Oh, Booplady, I thought about you off and on all day yesterday and was hoping to get a super-relieved update. You can do this though, and now you have even more reason to beat it. I'll see if I can find that article real quick and come back and post it.

(((HUGS)))

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Registered: 10-12-1998
In reply to: booplady44
Thu, 05-27-2010 - 11:39am

This is an article I have printed out and read it from time to time. I don't know if it will help you, but it, along with Dr. Weekes work, has helped me move toward a different perspective on life. The whole site there contains a lot of material on developing coping skills. If you click on "printer friendly" you will get the whole shebang and it is easier to read through.

http://www.dbtselfhelp.com/html/radical_acceptance_text.html

I hope this might help a little.

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Registered: 04-08-2003
In reply to: booplady44
Thu, 05-27-2010 - 12:58pm

Well ... it's sort of a congrats in a way. Don't you think? To know you're not at biologically at risk again? That now you know what needs to happen to reduce the chance of another stroke?

I found this group on meetup.org where women are meeting who support each other in mind-body fitness. The lady who is putting the group together is a psychologist & a mind/body fitness specialist. Well, I talked of my panic attacks so after the meeting she connected me to a computer that uses this emWave aka "heartmath" software. There is a device she also has that is not connected to the computer, but will use a finger sensor to map your heart rhythms. Basically you use this tool to learn how to equalize your heart rhytms.

Due to this being the first meeting my anxiety was very high when she hooked me to this computer I was able to stablize my heart rhytms in about 5 minutes by doing my breathing exercises I already do at home. It really helped me realize how important it is to meditate and/or yoga or some sort of breathing exercise.

1fish mentioned BP at home - I can see how this could become a stressor, but if you learn techniques to bring your heart rate down THEN start monitoring your BP then maybe you could use it as a tool.

I wish you a good & calm day. You must feel some sort of relief. You were getting quite nervous there - now it's over. I remember with my colonoscopy & earlier a breast biopsy - the stress leading up to the procedures were hard-core, but once they were over I felt a great relief even though I didn't get the results of the biopsies for another few days. I think the procedure is a bit more daunting than the results some times.

Sleep well tonight & treat yourself well. You deserve a break today.




"Only when we are sick of our sickness shall we cease to be sick."

~ Lao-Tzu, from The Tao Te Cheng



"Only when we are sick of our sickness shall we cease to be sick."

~ Lao-Tzu, from The Tao Te Cheng
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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: booplady44
Thu, 05-27-2010 - 5:37pm
(((Gracie))) Sort of good & bad news, but you know what you're working with. I wish you the very best. IMHO, I would look into acupuncture, massage, biofeedback or even a TENS unit to keep your anxiety levels under control. If your dr. will agree to something like that, even yoga & meditation can help. As for your blood pressures, unless your dr. advises taking them, I would steer clear of that. Sometimes that gets us to thinking TOO much & may cause more anxiety. Your dd is a nurse, right? Maybe she could occ. take your pressure & let your dr. know the results.
What about the walking routine you were doing? Has the dr. suggested to continue? That brings my stress & anxiety down so much & makes me feel better. I know you're a few miles away from me. I would be glad to talk to you, too. Email me through my profile or ijanis51@yahoo.com. I'll be happy to listen. Health problems are my specialty. Nobody freaks out like I do, but when it's someone else, I am so much calmer:) GL & GBU! I love you so much. You've been through a war & need a break! jan

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In reply to: booplady44
Thu, 05-27-2010 - 9:01pm
Thank you for the site I put it in my favs and plan to print it out.

BOOP


Three grand essentials to life are...something to do

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In reply to: booplady44
Thu, 05-27-2010 - 9:33pm

I had been through the BP thing with my primary physician. DH ran ambulance for yrs so hes able to take my BP. We did monitor it for awhile and it was actually low most of the time.

BOOP


Three grand essentials to life are...something to do

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In reply to: booplady44
Wed, 06-02-2010 - 6:48pm
(((Gracie))) Consider us your online family:) I do! jan

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Registered: 10-22-2001
In reply to: booplady44
Tue, 06-08-2010 - 10:29am

~hugs~
When I read this I felt so bad you were being so hard on yourself...my ds is like that he has an anxiety/panic disorder.
We joke around about who gave it to who...kwim?
He says he gave it to me but I said I am older so it's more likely it's the other way around.
I have a friend who has this and she has struggled with it and is an awesome woman...
I believe it can happen to anyone at anytime in their life...I might be wrong but you aren't ALONE.
Hopefully you will get more positive support from your family and the other people in your Life...friends, and your doctors etc.
Just going to the doctor in and of itself is a victory...many people aren't able to do that...
Like my ds says he worries and is anxious about everything,
Some days are better but he has learned coping skills that work for him...
As for getting it under control you are being way too hard on yourself...you are aware that you have anxiety and are trying your best
~hugs~

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In reply to: booplady44
Tue, 06-08-2010 - 7:15pm
Rec'd your email. I am waaaaay behind): Will get in touch very soon. Hope all's well. GL & GBU! (((hugs))) jan

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