Really upset (preg, m/c mentioned)
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|Tue, 03-25-2003 - 8:44am|
When he called I immediately burst into crying and while I explained what happened (he didnt know about our loss) he stumbled into the every one of the "standard" responses. You'll get pregnant again! It was a good sign! There is always a reason!
While most days those are all acceptable but after the news of a baby born around when my baby would have been born was just too much.
DH was not home (friend was one of DH's groomsmen! and visa versa!) so I told them how happy I was for them and how this was a very hard time for me and wished them the best but had to get off the phone.
I was miserable all night. I turns out that my wonderful DH knew they were expecting and couldnt bear to tell me! UGH!!!! Now I cannot be approached by my own DH!!!
I'm getting a second PCOS opinion on MOnday and and its yet another f#$(#$(ing hurdle in my contant struggle to have a family. Sometimes I want to know how I pissed off so many people in this world that this is happening to me :(
I wish I had more perspective but all I want to do is cry and emotionally eat (which I know I shouldn't do). I have to cancel a meeting today with a colleague at her home and her 3 month new born. I thought I was ready to do this but now I'm now where close.
Thanks for listening!