Back from vacation, pondering my life
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| Tue, 05-24-2005 - 4:49pm |
Hello everyone,
We are back from vacation. In case you didn't know we spent 5 days in Anahiem, Disneyland and all, and 5 days in San Deigo. I loved San Deigo, and don't have much to say about the people of Anahiem, we found them a little rude. San Diego was a breath of fresh air after our stint in Disney. I loved the people, food, everything. And if you ever get a chance to hit the harbour and eat at Anthony's Grotto, I highly recommend the Lobester Thermadore. It was better than my coveted chocolate.
I sadly came to the realization however, that my marriage is ending, and that I will be leaving my husband sometime in the near future. Which leaves me pondering the multitude of questions my brain is asking me. We have had a rocky relationship, and my guts told me very early to get out, but along came kids and poof 10 years later...things are not so rosy. So today I'm sad. I have alot of big decisions to make. Like what the heck am I going to do after being a mom for 10 years, *sigh* - but excited at the prospect of someday having happiness in all our lives. This will undoubtedly result in happier kids and a happier me. Its just starting the painful process that is hard.
Wish me luck, and if you pray, put in a word for me. Thank you.
Holly
btw..I have been reading alot of Sylvia Browne, and if you know her work, you know she believes that we all write our chart (life's path) in heaven before we decide to come down to this exsistance...and wow I did write myself a doozy. But I am better for the lessons that have passed and the ones that will come. Its this quiet contentment that has seeped into my soul that is calming all my fears.

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Molly
Holly,
I am praying for you and your children.
I was raised by a workholic father. He showed no love, ever. He was gone all the time. As I got older, I would tell my mom that she should have left him long ago, but she never did. My dh is the complete opposite of my father. Our family comes first!
I know this is a very hard decision for you. ((((((Holly)))))
Hugs,
Vicki
Molly,
I know this may not be the appropriate board to share the trails and tribulations of my life (off topic from the RA), but this board means more to me than any other. I hope you don't mind my sharing, because sometimes its this board alone that keeps me sane!!!
Take care of you,
Holly
Vicki,
Yes this last 10 years of my life has been very very hard. I raised (and am still raising) two BUSY children 17 months apart (9 & 7 years old now), dealing with the RA, house, bills, finances, company finances, the muck of daily living basically alone. I married a guy who has high expectations, and those expectations are what has really driven me away. I call it the 990 rules to living with my dh. I recovered from 3 major surgeries on my own and still had to take care of my kids in the process. So this decade has taught me about strength, hope and faith.
I am better for it, but looking forward to a peaceful future.
Thanks for listening. Take care of you.
Holly
Molly
{{{{{{{{{{{{{Holly}}}}}}}}}}} My prayers are with you.
Roma,
I feel a little hug from everyone who posts, Thank you! Its a tough decision, but a right one. Its funny but now that its being finalized in my brain, more doors are opening up. I think I've found a job that will support me and my kids and pay rent, and I think I found an acreage not too far from this small town to live. So visits will be easy. I hope to be out of this house by mid summer.
Thanks for your hugs!!
Holly
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