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| Wed, 11-16-2005 - 2:07pm |
I know I've been a board hog...but please bear with me...
I'm so darn fatigued that I cannot stand it...I am going to leave early from work today and go home...I'm supposed to take my ds to basketball practice at 8pm tonight but I don't think I'm going to be able to.
I feel so guilty for taking time off work, but I literally just cannot sit here any longer. I can barely get here every morning.
I went through this same thing when I was struggling so badly with Bipolar...but it has the whole mental illness stigma attached to it...now, with a physical illness going on, its almost like I feel like nobody believes that what I have is real! That its all in my head!
Ugh...I am just a mess...I get sooooo incredibly tired, and when I let myself get THIS tired, I end up crying and really depressed; great, I'm crying now...I hate this.
I'm on Prozac, but because of my BP, I can only take it at a very low dose.
I really hate to unload on you guys, but I need to talk to people who understand everything I am going through right now. I am usually very strong, and very positive about it all, but its when the fatigue is so bad I can't function, and the pain is so bad, I just lose it...
Thanks for listening. I'm going home now...but I'll check in with you guys tomorrow. You've all been so wonderful to me.
Keli

Keli, no such thing as a board hog.
Molly
Hi, Keli. I've been away for a week or so but finally caught up and read all your posts. I feel for you--been where you are. It's that vicious triangle of pain, depression and fatigue--all feeding off each other. Everyone has offered you some great advice and tips. Your doctor simply is not doing enough to treat you in the interim before you can see a rheumy. I think I remember someone here a couple of years ago who was in your position. If I recall correctly, she went to the emergency room for quicker treatment. At least they might prescribe the prednisone or give you an injection of cortisone (which works best for me). If it's the middle of the night or the weekend, and you can't reach your doctor, and you're in great pain....you'd seek emergency treatment, right?
Try to take it easy and rest when you can.
Rosemary
(((((Keli)))))
You have to listen to your body when it says "enough". Some rest really does help. My fatigue was so bad the first three months into this that I could NOT function and I did not work outside of the house. It is brutal and we do understand. I wish I could take some of your pain for you. It is okay to cry, we all do it at times. Vent it all out. The pain and fatigue will not always be this bad.
Gentle, gentle hugs,
Vicki