super bummed today
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|Mon, 07-21-2003 - 2:00pm|
This could be pretty long, but I just gotta vent. OY!!!! Ok, hubby and I have lived together now for 7 years, married 6 years this past april. Anyway, we are always broke. Hubby always either doesn't have a job (grrr) or has a low paying job. I always have low paying jobs too. The past year and a half hubby has been doing better at having a job, they are just low paying still. We owe on old utility bills and phone bills and a few family memebers out the wazoo. Currently we are living with my father in law (oh the joy!) We had to move in because hubby got layed off of a job and we couldn't pay the rent. We never have enough money to pay on our debt or even just save or to go the doc if we get sick. DH's teeth are crumbling and breaking and hurt him every day, but we can't afford to go the dentist. None will take payments, and we can't afford the insurance our jobs offer. We don't blow all our money on junk either. We make $7 an hour each, but hubby is only getting around 30 hours a week give or take a few. I don't have any friends to talk to. I have a couple friends I made in Arkansas when I lived there, but they haven't written to me in over a month.
We both don't like our jobs, or any that we have hade really. I don't like dealing with the public that much. I suffer from anxiety and depression and we all know what that does to a person when you are around a bunch of people. No money to treat that either. We both get so bored with our jobs. We both have talked about going to school, so that we can get better jobs that we like. Hubby can't figure out what he wants to do though. I have several things I would like to do, but I see no way of paying for it. And I can't decide which of the ones would be best, or if there is something else that I haven't thought of I would like better. We also only have one car and I currently work only a block and a half from our house. I can't even try to get another job right now cause I have no way to get there.
So for the past seven years we have been broke, had crappy, low paying, boring jobs, gotten into debt, are lost as to what to do next or how to do it to get out of our rut. Hubby and I love each other very much, for better or worse. We are ready for the better. Ok, I'm done venting for a while. This is just making me bummed out today.