The return of my ex...help me!!!!!
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|Fri, 07-25-2003 - 10:12am|
Now, the weak mushy girl I used to be would have caved and wimpered on his shoulder. Instead, I told him that I did miss him and did care abou thim but I care much more about me and don't intend to move backwards, I don't intend to allow him to hurt me again. I said if i got hurt, it was because I let it happen and I won't do that! He said he wants to spend time with me and see what can possibly happen, no promises but he really wants to see. I asked if he got his life together and he is far from it. We talked for quite a while and went to sleep, I was in one room, he in another!!
I got to work today and he had left a message apparemtly before he had gone out drinking. It was very matter of fact, no gushy I miss you! So I am trying to decide if the visit was alcohol induced attempt at a little sex with the ex or if it let his guard down and he really misses me. Based on previous experience, I think it is the latter. But really, who cares. right? I do still love him dearly but in the 5 months we have been apart, I have done nothing but enhance my life, he has self destructed!
WHY DID HE HAVE TO CALL OR COME OVER? I know I should have let him take his chances with driving the distance home and not even let him in but I just couldn't let him drive, for his safety and others. I know, not my problem and he is a grown up but despite everythign he did to me, I couldn't let him take a risk last night!