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|Mon, 07-28-2003 - 10:45am|
I'm so sorry I haven't written and haven't been posting the "daily discussions". Things have been really busy and had started going really well for me and then today the bubble burst as it always seems to do *sigh*.
To make a long story short, I have been talking to a guy online and things were going great, he really liked me and we talked everyday. I got an email from him today and he said the distance would just be too much and just wants to remain friends. I'm fine with that and am grateful that he wants to remain friends but yet again I feel ... oh I mine as well say it, I feel let down by God.
I don't know how much longer I can continue with this joke of a life I have. I just don't understand it. I think I'll go home tonight and look at my "happy box" and maybe that will help me feel better. I've got alot of positives in my life ...
1. Great friends I can hang out with schedules permit.
2. Great parents who love me dearly.
3. A good job.
4. I'm smart and I'm working on losing weight.
5. I'm a good person.
Etc., etc., etc.
I'd just like to know why I can't have someone special in my life! I feel like yelling out my window at God and asking WHYYYYYYYYY. Why is it so difficult to meet people? None of my friends know anyone or aren't willing to set me up if they do know someone. Online dating just doesn't work as I've found out numerous times and I need to stop putting myself in that situation.
Guess I'll just get back to work ... that seems to be the only reason why God put me on this earth, I see no other reason why I'm here.