Advice on how to lighten-up
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|Wed, 11-05-2003 - 12:36pm|
Recently I was feeling a little picked on again so I called. Two days later (today) she called back. One thing led to another and I found courage to ask if I could put her on the spot. She agreed. I asked if I was likeable or weird. Mainly because I know people shy away from me and have always been a loner. She responded with a lot of helpful info, some I suspected. She says that I am DIFFERENT. Evidentally, I am too serious, too passionate about being healthy and being a "good" parent. It appears that people try to change their eating or excersize behaviors because "I" inspire them but fall short then begin to hate me because I don't stop working at it. I didn't know that I had any power.
What I came away with after the conversation. 1. Don't talk about health, period. It appears to really turn people off. 2. Don't be so serious. (I have had a serious life). 3. Get a social hobby. Alrighty then :-) So now what do I talk about, the weather? Seriously, oops I'm not suppose to be serious. Confusion. LOL.
OK, so how do I begin this change? Step by step on how to not be so serious. This is difficult for me, I grew up without parental care, so I over parent. I grew up chubby and dull, so I am a bodybuilder. I grew up poor so I have my own business. I grew up dumb and ignorant so I am progressively working on self improvement and that of my children so they don't grow up stunted like me. I don't know how to relate to people so I stay home.
Any good books or advice. I am a serious person, what do I do in a world of people that can't take responsibilities serious. Here's an interesting example. My brother is watching The Texas Chainsaw Masacre with his girfriends 13yo daughter. It's none of MY business and I can not change the world.
There I was, 13yo sitting in an empty field in a self made fort eating chicken from the restraunt garbage because I had no home. I spoke to GOD and said, that someday I would make a difference. I somehow never did drugs but I was having sex at 14 (I am ashamed). I didn't make it through life on a real happy-go-lucky note. Nope, rather serious and passionate. I am different and it shows. How do I act like everyone else so that I won't be so different?