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|Wed, 11-12-2003 - 2:02pm|
I am having a rough couple days, silly really. I am feeling very down and doubtful about my relationship with df. The closer we are to moving into our "real" apartment and the closer we get to our wedding date (feb) the more distance i try and put between. Just in case he decides he doesnt really want me.....he of course is so perplexed and getting a little angry with me. Why is it so hard for me to believe that I could be loved like I love him? I know that I would be devestated if he walked away - but for some reason I cant believe that I would even be missed. Except for the sex and housekeeping - would he miss ME? Isnt he bored with me yet??? Pity party for PlayNICE.....wah wah
I go through this sometimes. Not sure what set me off today.
How do you go about finding those positive things in yourself??? What works for you guys?
Sorry im being so darn *poor me* but for some reason im very low today. However, I have told myself that I must list at least one good thing for every bad thing so - I want to share with everyone that I will be an aunt for the first time every next month. I went to my brothers girlfriends babyshower this weekend and everything was PINK!!! Yeah!!!
Thanks for listening. Sometimes it helps just to say it all out loud without worrying that I am boring someone.