For some reason today, I am in a really crappy mood...I just feel depressed or something. I don't know if I really have a good reason for it (maybe I am PMSing), but whatever it is, it's just getting to me. Several times today, I almost burst into tears. I think it had to do with a conversation I had with my Mother about being grateful. I know she was trying to make me feel good about what I have, but it just made me realize everything I don't. I have a sucky job, I have a tiny apartment which I rent-not own, I don't have a lot of friends or a boyfriend (never have had one of those). I don't even have my health, being that I am diabetic.:( I know it sounds like I'm having a real pity party for myself today, sometimes I just can't help it. I know there are probably people who have it far worse than me, but all I can do is keep feeling sorry for myself, which is probably very annoying to the people around me. One thing I do have is my family, I don't know what I would do without them, but even now my parents are moving further away (presently they are in the same town and it's so nice for me to have them there). I know I need to get a grip and be a little more mature about things, but I don't know how to do that right now.
Sorry if this is whiny and depressing, I think I just need to get it out in the open. I am very emotional and sensitive to even the slightest thing. I think being that way make life harder and I wish I could toughen up a little.
Hope I didn't bring anyone down with me,