My experience with therapy so far.....
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|Tue, 12-22-2009 - 4:58pm|
I saw my therapist today, sweet old man. Perhaps almost symbolic of the year ending, we did a brief summary of 2009 and I asked him what diagnosis he may have for me, after almost an entire year of not very intensive cognitive psychotherapy. His answer: Ummm, not sure. Some depression. Some mild case of schizoeffective disorder? Needless to say, he left me with no concrete answer. And hearing the latter explanation I freaked out. Schizo-what? He assured me it is NOT schizophrenia and he suspects a mild case anyway. Still, this is the first time I've heard something different than yor plain ole depression. He is also not a licensed psychotherapist but a psychologist. Not sure if that makes any difference.
I am sitting here in front of my computer and trying to make some sense out of this. Kinda hard when you're already struggling to think clearly. I am overwhelmed with this unofficial diagnosis. I briefly google the term and came up with so many serious articles on mental illness, I felt scared to death. You know how it is on the Internet, one article leads to another, pages are linked, links are shared. Next thing you know is that you're sitting in front of your computer researching the same thing for hours. And you get overwhelmed by it all. Does this means I am considered certifiable crazy? How do I go about my treatment if my guy cannot prescribe meds? He sort of left me with this and now I am trying to figure out how to get through the holidays if I will be thinking about this possible disorder I have.
What do you suggest that I do in trying to help myself feel more hopeful?