What is wrong with me?
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|Mon, 02-15-2010 - 12:43pm|
I am a 26 year old full time college student. I have recently lost my first nephew and 3 weeks later, my grandmother to cancer - all over the 3 week christmas holidays.
I am finding that I have no emotion. I don`t find joy in anything, I am introverted and do not attend social events out of this overbearing heaviness of lethargy and thoughts. I like to believe that I am functioning without the grief of 2 deaths in my family, but I cant help but think they are causing an underlying depression. I am not overly emotional about either of the deaths, I feel the need to break down over my grandmother because I was at the hospital every day and she died the day i went back to school after the holidays, so I believe that is a problem for me.
I am just curious what this emotionless, anti social, sedated state may be because I just cannot identify what my body wants to feel, vs what my mind doesnt. I am a happy person but my motivation and inability to feel ANYTHING is making me very concerned.
Has anyone had a similar experience, where they lack emotions and just feel seperated from their former self?