Belated Welcome, Shavtay2007

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Belated Welcome, Shavtay2007
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Tue, 03-20-2007 - 10:32am

Hi Tziporah,


I am so sorry that this is such a belated welcome to you. I've been absent from the board for nearly a month - so many things have been happening in my life that it was difficult to also come here. The good news is that life has somewhat calmed down (but I'm still crossing my fingers and my toes), which means that I'm back on iVillage.


I am so very happy to see you here, participating and sharing in our conversations! I hope that we'll get to know each other better in the coming weeks.


Welcome again!


(PS: I love the sound of your name!)


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Mon, 05-23-2011 - 9:26am
Hi Karen, That story about your husband's contract ending, which means you didn't need the apartment, etc., is so amazing. It seems like G-d knew all along and knew before you did. Well, this story reminds me of an incident that happened to Shabtai and me when we were waiting for his second transplant in the U.S. We had gotten on several waiting lists with different hospitals. One hospital misplaced his file in a drawer somewhere and we didn't discover that for five months. Then there was another hospital which was some distance from where we were staying, so we would mail them blood samples. Every time they seemed to either lose the package or the lab results wouldn't work. Then there was the hospital which called us to come in, saying we were chosen for a transplant. Right before the operation, the procedure was aborted. One of the factors used in matching tissue types was questionable and they didn't want to risk it. As you can imagine, all of these mishaps caused us much grief and anguish at the time. Punch line--the hospital where Shabtai was finally transplanted was a fourth hospital--none of the above three. It was as if G-d was trying to tell us, "not here--this is not the hospital where the transplant willl occur." Of course, like with your planned Chicago move, it's very easy to understand all of this in hindsight. I'm glad you had that heart-to-heart talk with your mom about having to stay with her for a few more months. if your husband is around, it will be a bit easier--right? or, will that must make it even more complicated? i'm really looking forward to hearing how the graduation went. You deserve tons of credit for sticking by your son. Have you seen the movie, Front of the Class? I think I mentioned it here. It's a true story about a guy, Brad Cohen, with torret's syndrome who wants to be a teacher. Well, the reason I'm mentioning it, is because his mother was really supportive of him. his father had a harder time coming to terms with it, but finally did. I think it's a very good film, not mushy, but very honest and realistic. It also is a book, if you prefer reading it. I found it on youtube with Spanish subtitles. As for me, my psych.doc said to increase the dose to mg150. haven't noticed any real changes. in my last therapy sesion on Thursday, we agreed that i'd do one hour of work a day, whether I felt like it or not. Friday was busy with Sabbath cokking and Saturday was the Sabbath--those are days I normally don't do any work anyway, so they don't count. Yesterday was a minor Jewish holiday, so I didn't do anything either. Today, MOnday, so far I've been busy with exercising, saying Psalms, and learning, so I haven't done it either. wWell, there is the evening, but I have to be honest and say I'm not looking forward to it. I have to prepare a class for tomorrow and would rather do that instead. That doesn't count as work. Work means doing something with the coaching business, website, or looking for a job. I'd rather just spend my time doing things that interest me. Work, the thought of it, is such a drag. laugh. Tziporah
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Mon, 05-23-2011 - 3:39pm

Hi Tziporah!

I had to smile while reading your post.

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Wed, 05-25-2011 - 6:24am
Hi Karen, I'm assuming you smiled at the part in my last message about how everything works out. Right? You didn't say in your last message what made yyou smile. I wish I could be psyched up for getting a job like you seem to be right now. but i'm not. haven't even looked at the website once or done anything with coaching this week--not like I was supposed to. i look at all the promotional emails and they nauseate me. i'm still doing good with exercising every day, except the Sabbath. and sometimes I exercise twice a day. i really like the yoga stuff. sometimes i do the exercises my physio gave me for my back. my t. said i should approach the coaching business or job thing in the same way i have done with the exercises. just ignore the feelings and do it. i just haven't been able to yet. sometimes i have anxiety that when my folks come in the fall i will still not be thin enough, or my buttocks and stomach will still be bulging--and they'll criticize that. when these thoughts occur, i try to tell myself that it's just my anxiety talking and try to ignore them or think about something else. i try to tell myself i'm doing it for me, not for them. i went to a wedding last night--a good friend of mine had her daughter getting married. i actually enjoyed it. i was seated near friends i like so that definitely helped. also, we didn't overstay. i had a good piece of fish. considering I don't go to weddings a lot, that's saying something. tomorrow, Thursday, the electrical company people are supposed to come. I'm trying not to doubt it, but they've said they're coming so many times. main thing, though, is what to do about this job thing. i really just have no appetite for the coaching or the website. Tziporah
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Thu, 05-26-2011 - 12:32pm

Hi Tziporah,

I wish I could send you some of my enthusiam.

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Mon, 05-30-2011 - 8:15am
Hi Karen, I think probably almost everybody is related to a convict in the U.S.--maybe exaggerating a bit, but I don't think too far exaggerating. Something like--there is mental illness in almost every family and if you just look hard enough, you'll find it. laugh. As far as the natural disasters go, this year'[s been really bad worldwide, with the earthquakes, sunamis, and the tornadoes and floods. i think the world is totally out of balance eccologically. Jewish mysticism also proports that physical phenomenon in the world, like pollution and climate change, for example, as well as floods and other things, come about when the world is out of balance spiritually and when there is a lot of falsehood and imorality in the world. Well, I could go off on a tangent about that, but I wanted to write about something else. I read the last part of your last message, about my not finding my life calling yet, and immediately started biting my cuticles again. my cuticles are actually in very good shape, but this life calling subject is a trigger, to be sure. i thought i had a life calling once, way back when I was in college, but it was something that is contrary to Judaism, so when I became religious, I gave that thing up. i don't really want to disclose what it was. anyway, since then I've tried different things and each time I think, this is it. it always starts out okay, but then after a few years things get complicated--i get into complicated situations, the initial enthusiasm wears off, and then i look for something new. so many therapists and coaches i've talked to say this is my pattern. i don't regret the different things i've done. i've learned from all of them. coaching has made me a better Torah teacher. the things i did before I became observant gave me a broad knowledge of the world and different cultures, so I'm at peace with that too. but this life calling stuff. i really envy people who just know from day one what they want to do and just do it. you're right. it should be fun, not a chore. when i was in coaching school it was fun. but thinking about it now, perhaps what was fun was the learning. it also has to do with my lifelong fears and anxieties about handling money, and i'm sure that's a large part of it. Tziporah
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Mon, 05-30-2011 - 4:09pm

I'm so sorry Tziporah, I did not mean to trigger you.

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Wed, 06-01-2011 - 9:54am
Hi Karen, I know you didn't mean to trigger me. Well, I guess you could say I triggered myself. Anyway, my cuticles are a mess again--first and third finger on the left hand, all but the fifth finger on the right are in various stages. i'm aware i need to change a lot of things, that i'm very isolated, that i need to get out more, that i'm bored, and that i have no idea what i want to do with myself. you could say these are good awarenesses--if they lead to some kind of action. but what kind of action to take? that's where i'm in a quandary. Did you ever read the children's classic, Pollyanna? Well, I needed to look it up for a coaching class I was giving and ended up reading it. actually, there's a lot in the story about the virtues of thinking positively and optimistically. that was the reason I had looked it up originally--the subject I had to talk about was positive thinking. well, it stimulated my thinking a lot. there's one part where Polyanna complains about having to learn such things as sewing, cooking, and reading. (don't forget, this book came out in 1913). and she says: "that's not really living." to her, "living", is interacting with people, being out and about, etc. i think you can see how it touched a raw nerve in me. but i see i'm not really "living" by being so isolated. but i really have nowhere to go--and that is a lot of the problem. on the good side, there was a lot of progress with the elevator this week. i also read the entire book of Psalms twice and found it spiritually uplifting. i'm still exercising regularly, which is a good thing. but i'm feeling the boredom more. and like i said, after a few weeks when my cuticles were okay, i've started messing them up again. i think the only thing the new meds have done is given me more clarity about my emotional situation. i also have more enrgy, which also may be a result of the regular exercise, but like i said, i'm getting more depressed about myself and my situation. have no idea what to do. i sent out an email for a company that does tutoring online. i thought they would answer. they haven't. that was two days ago. i hope you get a job soon. that medical receptionist job sounds like it could be a promising thing--like you said, they wanted you to resend your resume. Tziporah
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Tue, 06-07-2011 - 11:00am

Hi Tziporah,

I haven't been feeling well and on top of that I have been a very busy girl.

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Fri, 06-10-2011 - 6:23am
Hi karen, Congrads on the dresser. A great deal and it sounds like you got something really good and suitable for your needs. Hope you'll be feeling better soon. As for me, still doing the exercises and spending time reading and learning spiritual things. This week there was a holiday so it was very nice. Still picking at my cuticles a lot. A lot of inner tension and anxiety. I discussed it with my therapist. He said I have to make some jaor decisions. Spending my time reading and exercising and doing the things I like would be okay if I can afford it. But I can't. That's the problem. i'm still procrastinating and engaging in avoidance. I know that. i finally owned up and told my t. all the insecurities I have. Admitting that was really hard, but I knew I had to do it. Also, I finally got up enough courage to discuss it with Shabtai. In general, he agrees with most of what the t. said. Yesterday Shabtai told me I should send some emails out connected with coaching to some people who might be able to give me some help. I still haven't done it. Well, today's Friday, preparing for the Sabbath. But I guess if I really wanted to, I could/would do it. It's also tied up with a lot of other issues. I'm really too tired to go into it. But I am discussing it in therapy. I'm great when it comes to talk. But what I need is action. (laugh). Oh, I almost forgot. We finally got the okay from the electric company. Now, work should be progressing much faster. They say it will take about two weeks to complete the job. I'm starting to get tired of living this way--with inaccessibility to all the items that are stored in that room and a lot of furniture form that room in the living room. Not tomention the incredible amount of dust and dirt! Once the instillation is done, I got my work cut out for me, cleaning up the mess and putting everything back in order. Ten times worse than any spring cleaning job. I told Shabtai I want to hire professionals to clean out the room. It's that filthy. Right now, all the equipment they need and all the parts they have to put together are in there. I hope you get your own house soon, sooner than "some day", as you say. One final question: could youy explain to me again how this msb works, specifically how to go from one page in a thread to the next page? I want to start reading other people's threads again and I can't seem to figure it out. Thanks. Have a good week end. Tziporah
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Fri, 06-10-2011 - 12:25pm

Hi Tziporah,

well it finally rained here and then it rained again.

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