Belated Welcome, Shavtay2007

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Belated Welcome, Shavtay2007
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Tue, 03-20-2007 - 10:32am

Hi Tziporah,


I am so sorry that this is such a belated welcome to you. I've been absent from the board for nearly a month - so many things have been happening in my life that it was difficult to also come here. The good news is that life has somewhat calmed down (but I'm still crossing my fingers and my toes), which means that I'm back on iVillage.


I am so very happy to see you here, participating and sharing in our conversations! I hope that we'll get to know each other better in the coming weeks.


Welcome again!


(PS: I love the sound of your name!)


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Thu, 11-24-2011 - 4:36am
Hi Karen, WOW! What else can I say? Sounds like what I was going through in August--with Shabtai's accident, his father sick, and the elevator needing to be finished--all at once! I also thought of this, because Shabtai and his father were in the same hospital also--in fact, on the same floor in different rooms. You're right about my fil. He is in a place of peace. As for my parents' visit, things were very slow-paced. My parents are aging. Plain and simple. Still, they had their regular comments about my maid, the apartment, and al the things they want to do next year. After they left, my t. asked me to rate the visit on a 1-10 scale, 1 being the worst, 10 being the best. I said I would give it a 7--8 rating. He said: "write it down where you'll remember it." This week has been harder. Now, after the months of activity, everything has slowed down again. Shabtai had a bad fever last week, which kept him at home. but now he's back into his regular schedule and I have nothing to do. boredom. I keep putting off the few things I have to do. I can do it tomorrow. spend my days sleeping or just bumming around. feeling dissatisfied and depressed. hurt my back again so yoga is out. ot sure whether to keep on with therapy. we've talked about it all already. what else can he do for me, or what else can I do for myself? all the old feelings and thoughts coming back. Have a session tonight. Hope you're feeling better by the time you read this. Tziporah
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Fri, 11-25-2011 - 1:29am
Hi Karen, WOW! Sounds like the craziness I've been going through over the last few months! I hope things have settled down. Your therapist would be really proud of you--and so am I. Very sorry to hear about your husband's MS. that feeling of being alone--exactly what I felt when I first was confronted with Shabtai's illness. Great luck, though, you're in the leading hospital that treats this disease. Really amazing how that just came about. Awesome. How will this affect his job and your own prospects of finding work? What is your son doing? As for me, my parents left and, believe it or not, within an hour of their departure, Shabtai came down with a very high fever. That's the way it is with transplant recipients. One minute they can be perfectly well, the next minute very sick. Thank Heavens that didn't happen while my folks were here. That was Sunday night. Monday morning, while sitting on the floor to get veggies out of the fridge, my back spasmed on me. (is that a word?--spasmed)? well, anyway, it felt like a knife cutting right through me horizontally. Seering pain. agony. no exaggeration. hobbled around until I could get to my physio on Tuesday. Of course, all exercise was out. Spent last week, and much of this, lying around, bored, depressed. Back to weekly pyschotherapy sessions after taking longer intervals between sessions. nail-biting--cuticle-biting back again. no structure. he said the "urgency" was there, not for the tasks that should be done, but for my mental health. He said that I've "built my own prison" by not being more outgoing and I have to start branching out more. doesn't matter what at this point--anything will do. I can't help but agree. I recognize the signs and don't want to fall into a slump again. it happens every year after my parents leave. as for the visit, on a scale of 1--10, my t., asked what rating I would give it. I said: 7--8. he said to write that down somewhere so I would have it on record. so, for the record, you are my witness, I'm recording it here. Shabtai is now back in physiotherapy for his knee. a long haul this one, but he is determined. hope things are settling down with you and you had an enjoyable Thanksgiving, and hoping also your health is okay. write back when you can. Tziporah
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Fri, 11-25-2011 - 3:57pm

Hi Tziporah!

I did enjoy my Thanksgiving.

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Sun, 12-04-2011 - 3:54am
Hi Karen, Hi Karen, I hope this post is in the right place. Anyway, you are right. The visit was better than I thought it would be. Now I'm trying to get back into some kind of structure. That is what my therapist and I are working on. Not easy, ut tryin. Fingers a bloody mess! And they're not healing fast. Which just makes me pick at them more, which just makes them bleed more. gET THE PICTURE? wHAT KIND OF THERAPY DOES YOUR HUSBAND NEED? i HAVE ALWAYS FIGURED, WITH REGARDS TO MY HUSBAND'S HEALTH, AND MINE AS WELL, IT'S THE INDIVIDUAL'S OWN RESPONSIBILITY. iF HE DOES WHAT HE SHOULD OR NOT, ULTIMATELY HE IS THE ONE WHO HAS TO ANSWER FOR THAT, NOT US--AS THEIR WIVES. tZIPORAH
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Mon, 12-05-2011 - 8:59pm

Hi Tziporah,

DH needs to learn how to control his anger.

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Mon, 12-05-2011 - 11:43pm
Hi Karen, so sorry to hear about your panic attack. I don't think I could endure a panic attack for three days. I've had a few and after a few hours I would be so agitated I'd call either my psych.doc or therapist--whichever I could get to first that should read--whoever I could get to first. lol. anyway... You've been through a lot, so I could see why you're stressing out. When I read the description of your husband's anger, I thought of myself. I go bolistic if I don't take my meds. Occasionally, I skip a day. get fed up with taking them. guaranteed--I'll have vivid dreams during my sleep--whether it's daytime or nighttime sleep, and I'm really unpleasant and nasty to be around. nervous and snappy with everyone, especially Shabtai. poor Shabtai. at some point, he gets to the end of his rope--and rightly so. then, I realize, chagrin, that I should stick to the meds, and that if I did, I could have avoided most, if not all, of the anger. I had that happen to me last week. was looking for something he needed and couldn't find it. turned the house upside down and stressed out in the process. he kept his cool. well, the anger episode was for about two days, on and off, until I calmed down again. as for the dreams, they're really weird, and occasionally I even enjoy having them because they're so strange. usually they're about all the underlying psychological issues. I've read that having these kinds of dreams is part of the withdrawal symptoms of going off the antidepressants. as soon as I take the blasted pill, they disappear. I don't like how my brain is so attached to these chemicals, but my t. keeps reminding me that if I didn't take the meds, the depression would be much worse. can't argue with that. fingers still a bloody mess. really all the fingers are in various stages of being ripped apart. sleep cycle totally out of sync. sleepy during the day. lie in bed at night and start picking away at my fingers. Shabtai has a very hacky cough right now, and when he sleeps, you can hear the phlegm in his chest or lungs--or wherever it's coming from. it's noisy enough to wake me up. plus, I'm sick myself--nose stuffed up. so I just lie there and then I start playing with my fingers. thinking--I'll bite off the hanging skin and make it better. but usually the opposite happens--make it worse, or start on something new to make a mess. On Sunday night when this started to happen, I eventually got up and put gloves on. that helped. but last night was just too tired--or lazy--to move fingers really in poor shape. took me forever yesterday to prepare the content of a class I have to give today. just couldn't decide what to focus on. well, just bit a cuticle--feels good actually. cathartic. I don't know if you ever read any of the posts by Chris, why140, who used to post here. started thinking about her and would just love to hear from her. she was so positive, so affirming, and so understanding. well, now I'[m up and have to prepare this class. started to work on a daily schedule like my t. said I should going okay--but just can't seem to get up the enregy to do any exercise. I know I should--for my back. perhaps when I'm over this cold I'll feel more like it. thanks for writing back even though you're not in such great shape yourself. just shows how devoted and cring you are. Tziporah
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Tue, 12-06-2011 - 8:39pm

Hi Tziporah,

When I went to the clinic on Thursday they gave me clonazepam and I took 1/4 of tablet this morning.

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Wed, 12-07-2011 - 12:11am
Hi Karen, Wow! You have my sympathies. Sounds like you are getting a handle on it--I mean, you're able to function. that's something that my t. would say. I've started doing this time management exercise and it seems to help. you choose five priorities and then see if you can fit them into your day. actually, you write down the activities you have done and see if they match up to the priorities you chose. so far, i see that i am doing most of the things i want--although i am still avoid some of the things i should be doing--especially exercising for my back. i'd like to start yoga again, but this cold makes the thought of doing any kind of exercise very unappealing. cold--not the cold weather kind--although it is cold here, too. cold--the nasal kind. i just feel so sore in my head and neck. hacky tightness in the chest. and not sleeping very well. Shabtai still has that hacky cough and it keeps me awake. he breathes and it sounds like there are flies buzzing around in his chest. well, last night I tried a different tactic. I decided to take an aspirin, plus my antidepressant and some liquor. the liquor was supposed to make me sleepy and soothe the cough. yduor--chocolate liquor, which made me feel v warm. but it didn't make me sleep any better than not taking it. i am careful with this stuff. we have liquor in the house for celebrations, but rarely touch it. anyway, i was just lying there and started playing with my cuticles again. from the night before, i already knew this was a downward trend. i succeeded in wrecking a few more fingers and then resigned myself to the fact i needed to put gloves on my hands, which i did. yay for getting out of bed and going into the cold kitchen to do that. the bedroom was warm and toasty with the heater on. in Israel, most people don't have central heating. it's not necessary. each room is heated individually with it's own heating. Well, after I put the gloves on, I did feel better. Still didn't get me to sleep any better. I agree with you. what in the world are you supposed to do in the middle of the night when you can't sleep? do those guys who write this advice actually ever do it? I doubt it. lol. Well, I did go to bed later than Shabtai--read a book and tried to keep at it until I was tired. Cuticles a bloody mess. feeling very embarassed about it--on Saturday I have to give my class and people will see it. hope it will be better by then. then on Sunday, there will be a circumcission ceremony for my friend's granddaughter and we're invited--which means another public occasion. people will see my hands again. it's hard to go out in public like that with ten bandaids on ten fingers. i should have thought of that before, right? hopefully by then they'll be better than they are now. i have gloves in my bathrobe pocket so that when I am tempted i can put them on. maybe when i am less congested I'll be able to sleep better. I hope so. not really extra tired. just wish I wasn't up the whole night. Karen, I hate the cold weather too. I'm a spring--all-year kind of person. give me balmy Florida in the winter and I'll be happy. Tziporah
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Sat, 12-10-2011 - 11:34pm

Hi Tziporah!

I came online really just wanting to cry.

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Mon, 12-12-2011 - 3:42pm

Hi Tziporah,

I have a therapy session tomorrow evening.

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