Belated Welcome, Shavtay2007

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Belated Welcome, Shavtay2007
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Tue, 03-20-2007 - 10:32am

Hi Tziporah,


I am so sorry that this is such a belated welcome to you. I've been absent from the board for nearly a month - so many things have been happening in my life that it was difficult to also come here. The good news is that life has somewhat calmed down (but I'm still crossing my fingers and my toes), which means that I'm back on iVillage.


I am so very happy to see you here, participating and sharing in our conversations! I hope that we'll get to know each other better in the coming weeks.


Welcome again!


(PS: I love the sound of your name!)


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Wed, 11-28-2007 - 12:49pm

Tziporah,


I'm glad that you're getting back

Amanda

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Registered: 03-12-2007
Thu, 12-20-2007 - 2:36am
Amen, Amen, Amen!
Only trouble is, I don't think Amanda wants to hear it.
At least, let others be forewarned to be careful not to fall into similar traps.
Tziporah
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Thu, 12-20-2007 - 2:58am
Hi Poppy,
I haven't dropped off the earth, just been away for awhile. You can call me Tzip if you like. Also, thanks for your Chanukah message--very thoughtful.
The last few weeks, I have been exerpimenting with a much more nonstructured schedule. Most of the time I have been writing, doing yoga, reading and learning. I dropped the coaching course I started--too much anxiety. That might have been part of the cause of my si.
This past Sunday, I hurt myself as I was trying to do some aerobics on my exercise bike and reawakened an old back problem. My physio is away till next week, and I have been mostly in bed resting, although I have started to do very gentle yoga again. I have been enjoying myself actually, having time to sleep, meditate, read, or just lie around--although the pain is no fun. My therapist says that this is very good in fact--experimenting with freedom and not being tied down to too many obligations. I have needed his reassurance that it is indeed okay and not a return to depression.
I have been doing more si activity, especially with my nails. even on this matter my therapist is not so overly concerned. He says that the main thing for me to learn right now is not to be worried about why I do things, just allow myself to experience things. He says the writing is also very therapeutic for me. Today I had a good session and actually felt good after it. that is a new sensation. In fact, I am experiencing a lot of new sensations. He says I seem more relaxed, which is good, and not to let my increase in nail-biting bother me at this point. I guess he figures it will decrease by itself. I hope so.
The other good news is that I had a regular appointment with my psychiatrist two weeks ago. After previous unsuccessful attempts, she said I could try once again to reduce my dose from 40mg of paxxil to 30mg. I have started to reduce my dose slowly, first going to 35mg. I only had a few vivid dreams and then they disappeared. Otherwise, I haven't really had any bad side effects. I think this time, with all the other measures I have been able to put into effect, I will be successful. My goal is to eventually get off the medications altogether, but my doc doubts that in fact this will happen. She says if I can get down to 20mg that would be very good. I would be pleased with that, to be honest, but my long-term goal is stil to eventually get off this stuff.
Perhaps if I write more on this board I can boost up getting off the nail-biting habit. Funny, though, it doesn't seem to bother me that much right now.
Tziporah
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Thu, 12-20-2007 - 3:01am
Poppy, I am so out of it, I completely forgot to ask how your performance went. How did it go? Tziporah
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Thu, 12-20-2007 - 3:18am
Hi Amanda,
If you read my replies to Poppy, you will see what has been happening with me of late. You are right, of course, about si--that it is an addiction and that the longer one can go without it, the less one wants to do it. Right now, I am doing it, si, but it doesn't seem to bother me that much and my therapist isn't worried about it. I figure, if he isn't worried, and he knows my quite well by now--have been with him since about 2001, then why should I worry. He is the kind who would voice concern if he felt it.
I hope things are settling down between you and your doc. I know she is important to you. I just hope she is more professional in her time slots. What Poppy said about it in a previous messge on this thread is correct.
And, last, but not least, I want you to know I got your private messages and will respond to them soon. I am interested in working with you. Tziporah
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Sat, 12-29-2007 - 9:24am
I'm so sorry that it's taken me such a long time to reply to you. I'm burned out and I've been taking a time-out from the boards as much as possible. It's been good to just keep an eye on the boards to make sure there aren't any fires to respond to, but not posting on a regular basis.


You do sound very relaxed. You sound happy, too. Not happy as in elated, but that happy that comes from inside because we're in a place where we're at peace with ourselves (or a certain degree of peace with ourselves). I can see that you aren't focusing on the nail-biting but instead on your progress and the good effects that it has on your life. You sound so much more in-tune with yourself. You sound as though you are finally listening to a part of yourself that you hadn't been able to hear beforehand.


I'm slowly getting back to yoga, too. I've decided to do it on my own, with my yoga CD's and DVD's. It's not ideal, but it's going to take time to find a small class. I am also going to see whether tai chi could be something I could enjoy doing. My goal (*not* a resolution, by the way), is to find activities that I like doing, which will make me move. No use in joining a gym that I hate or taking taebo classes which I'll abandon after a few sessions.


The belly dancing was so much fun! I had had some apprehensions, but at the end of the day it was fun even though I had to bare my stomach and wear three tons of make-up. We're on vacation right now but classes start again in a couple of weeks.


Work is slowly coming together and I hope that it'll be coming together in a positive way for the rest of the year. Two friends of mine have declared that they are going to help me with setting up the peer support group. My next step would be to talk to a lot of people to see what's going on here, what is needed, etc and make a plan of action. I've already got the next two community projects once this is set up and running!


I thought of you a couple of weeks ago. A friend of mine went to Bethlehem and Jerusalem for Christmas. Maybe one of these years I'll be able to go there, too.


Take care and talk to you soon!




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Sun, 12-30-2007 - 1:46am
i think the meditation exercises and the yoga have done the most to help me get into a better place. i feel looser, more calm and more energized. i am more aware of sensations in my body and i like that.
i can relate to burnout. i have also suffered from it. i think that is why i finally had to stop and take a break from everything, in order to reonnect to myself.
sometimes a person is so busy helping others all the time, until they finally burn out. i am glad to hear you are involved in the peer support group and comunity projects. is this, however, going to land you up into burnout again i mean, being a cl. on the boards involves helping others, as well as this community work. so think carefully about it, my friend.
have a good restful end-of-year. Tziporah
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Sun, 12-30-2007 - 5:24am
Yes, you are right about peer support groups and community projects being giving activities which might lead to more burn-out. As the peer group project progresses, I will most probably resign from one or two boards. It's something that I've been thinking of doing for some times now, so this might come sooner rather than later.


I also want to make more time to focus on my spiritual needs, too. That is something that I've been neglecting recently. First, the yoga. It helps me focus internally and brings me to my good inner place so that's a good start.


It's time for me to get ready for dinner. A friend of mine has invited me over for dinner, and I have to go in search of a dessert. I was thinking of bringing apple crumble, but the place I was thinking of getting it is a restaurant and the smallest plate they have would feed 12 hungry people - we're going to be 4 stuffed beings!


Have a good week and talk to you soon. And if I don't talk to you before January 1st, have a good new year!



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Sun, 12-30-2007 - 2:33pm
sounds like you're on a good wavelength--similar to my wavelength. Tziporah
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Tue, 01-01-2008 - 8:17am
Happy new year, Tziporah. Did you and your husband do something special to ring in 2008? I stayed at home and was on my own. I *needed* to be chill out on my own!


I'm off to do some stretches. Talk to you later!



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