Belated Welcome, Shavtay2007

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Belated Welcome, Shavtay2007
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Tue, 03-20-2007 - 10:32am

Hi Tziporah,


I am so sorry that this is such a belated welcome to you. I've been absent from the board for nearly a month - so many things have been happening in my life that it was difficult to also come here. The good news is that life has somewhat calmed down (but I'm still crossing my fingers and my toes), which means that I'm back on iVillage.


I am so very happy to see you here, participating and sharing in our conversations! I hope that we'll get to know each other better in the coming weeks.


Welcome again!


(PS: I love the sound of your name!)


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Registered: 03-12-2007
Sat, 02-05-2011 - 4:32pm
Hi Amy, Have been very nervous the last few hours. Solar energy tank not working again. Just had it repaired two weeks ago. (here, most people have their water heated directly from the sun, and when that doesn't work because it's a cloudy day, via electricity or gas). Again it's not working. Nervous, because every time they send the same technician. He seems to be the only one working in this area so we're stuck with him. Then I couldn't get the skype to work right. Shabtai wanted to talk to his mother via skype. Enough to put me into pressure. Starting picking at a finger on both sides and made it bleed. Still feeling tense, even though Shabtai's sister's son-in-law was nice enough to come over and fix the skype. then he showed me exactly what i need to do to get into it and use the video functions. That's the main thing. Shabtai's mother wants to see his face. otherwise, talking over the phone would be enough. I know everyone says I can succeed. It's just that I don't believe it yet. I jumped from thinking I was a failure because I couldn't get this skype to work, to thinking I'm a failure about everything--cannot succeed at anything. I know this self-talk is no good. Like a self-fulfilling prophecy. Anyway, I had a difficult session in therapy on Thursday. I was lying in bed, trying to wake up, and my speech started to get slurry. I had noticed this happening at othe times, and just assumed it had to do with my waking up slowly. But I never had that before, and it only seems to happen in the evening. Well, the therapist heard it and claled me on it. He said I should go back to the psychiatrist. Last night it happened again. I could feel myself trying to get the words out but just not being able to. I'm afraid. Maybe I'm having a mini-stroke. Or maybe this is the long-term effects of using a prozac-type med. Have you ever read the book: "Prozac Backlash"? It talks about a lot of side-effects from the proac/ssri class. I know there is no such thing as a "clean drug". Shabtai takes cyclosporin for his kidney transplant and he's had some of the side effects. So I accept there is no "clean drug". But still, the worst thing I need now is to hear I'm having a mini-stroke. My belief in these meds has started to dwindle. They seem to work for a while and then stop working. Going to sleep. Tziporah
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Registered: 08-07-2007
Mon, 02-07-2011 - 11:06am
Tziporah, the speech slurring is very concerning, you definitely should get that checked out. Better to be safe than sorry, is something I always say.

I hope your solar energy tank has been fixed by now. Don't want you having to take cold showers. Brr!

Glad the skype was fixed and I hope Shabtai had a good talk with his mom. Does he go with you to visit her sometimes?

Let us know what the doctors say about the speech issues.

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Registered: 03-12-2007
Tue, 02-08-2011 - 5:28pm
Hi Amy, I did call for an appointment with my psychiatrist, rather reluctantly. I guess I was scared enough. Typical, she still hasn't called back--or, rather, her secretary hasn't. Maybe she thinks it was just one of those anxiety moments which pass. Ambivalence about calling her again to set up an appointment, although I know I should. I guess I'm afraid it will really be what I fear most--a mini-stroke, the last thing I need right now. Still feeling tapped and with low energy. It gets worse in the afternoon. I doze in and out in the evening and finally get up. Then, when I should be sleeping, I'm awake again. A vicious circle. Haven't gone out every day as my t. suggested. Either rainy or too busy. On Wednesday, I'll be at my mil's during her speech therapy. Originally, physical therapy was supposed to happen after that, which would have meant I'd have to be there two hours. Shabtai says his mother feels better when someone from the family is present. Although, in fact, there are the Philippino helpers there, and I really don't do anything except sit there. The thought of having to be there two therapy sessions back-to-back was really something I didn't want. I was able to be assertive and got the physical therapy changed to a day when my sil is home, so I won't have to be there for that too. Fingers are so-so. Not bad. Not totally ripped up. Somewhere in between. I made some tentative moves in the coaching business, initiating some contacts. I guess that's a start. I'm also thinking more about my thoughts. Still tired most of the time. Sun tank problem finally figured out. The water tank part of it has a leak and will need to be replaced. We had a power failure today for a few hours. Part of the fuse box blew. These are minor stresses. At least Shabtai was around to help me cope. Also, while the electricity was off, just stayed in bed and listened to the news and music. This was calming. Tziporah
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Tue, 02-08-2011 - 6:06pm

Tziporah,

The stuff about the money and the way I think about it is fatalistic and I never said it was healthy.

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Registered: 08-07-2007
Wed, 02-09-2011 - 9:55am
I'm glad to hear you've made attempts to see your doctor, hopefully you will hear back soon, but if not definitely give them another call.

Yay for you recognizing that you have needs too and couldn't handle being at MILs for those 2 sessions together. I know that would've been really stressful for you, so I'm proud of you for standing up for, and taking care of, yourself! It sounds like it's paying off with your fingers.

I'm glad the water tank issue was figured out and I hope it can be replaced soon.

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Wed, 02-09-2011 - 3:56pm
Hello, Amy, Feeling more ambivalent about talking with the doctor. I want to do some research first to see if there is a connection between what happened--the slurred speech and the depression. Fingers still so-so in that some are okay, some not. Trying to be more assertive. Sun tank was replaced today. yay. Tziporah
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Wed, 02-09-2011 - 4:00pm
Yay! I'm glad the tank was taken care of, at least that's one less worry.

I did wonder too, if the slurred speech could be a result of a reaction to any medications or allergies, but I'd personally rather get it checked out than be sorry later.

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Wed, 02-09-2011 - 4:08pm
Hi Amy, That was fast! laugh. You're probably right about seeing the doc. Just that I'm feeling dissatisfied with the meds. Less trusting of them and enamoured with them than before. Feel like I take them but they're not really working. Allergies--definitely not. I read today about someone who totally turned their mood swings around by totalling eliminating sugar and wheat from their diet. I could see why that could make a difference, but knowing how I eat, don't think I could do that. Tziporah
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Registered: 08-07-2007
Wed, 02-09-2011 - 4:14pm
Well... looks like we're online at the same time, not something that happens often, is it? ;)

I understand what you mean about feelin dissolutioned by the medications after a time. Since you don't believe allergies are involved, then my guess is that it's either the meds or something else medically is going on. Definitely something to look into.

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Registered: 03-12-2007
Wed, 02-09-2011 - 4:36pm
Hi Amy, Amy. Okay. I'll be a good girl and leave a message on her phone service again. It's typical she doesn't answer right away. Really don't want to do this, but I know if it was the other away around, I'd give the same advice. Well, I tried calling her to leave a message. Her voicemail box was full--couldn't leave a message. A. for effort.
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