Belated Welcome, Shavtay2007

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Belated Welcome, Shavtay2007
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Tue, 03-20-2007 - 10:32am

Hi Tziporah,


I am so sorry that this is such a belated welcome to you. I've been absent from the board for nearly a month - so many things have been happening in my life that it was difficult to also come here. The good news is that life has somewhat calmed down (but I'm still crossing my fingers and my toes), which means that I'm back on iVillage.


I am so very happy to see you here, participating and sharing in our conversations! I hope that we'll get to know each other better in the coming weeks.


Welcome again!


(PS: I love the sound of your name!)


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Thu, 02-17-2011 - 10:50am

Hi Tziporah,

I'm a bit young for JFK.

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Fri, 02-18-2011 - 7:00am
Hi Amy, Still no response from my psychdoc. Yesterday I found another psychiatrist. I explained the situation to her briefly on the phone. She advised I try to find out through the hospital or insurance plan that she works with if everything is really all right. Perhaps my doctor is ill or something. Yesterday someone in my family who also goes to her, but doesn't know I do, called to ask me about what's going on. That's because I originally refered her to this doc. Friday is a semi-workday. A lot of places are closed. However, on Sunday, when the work week resumes, I'll try to find out what is going on. If I still come up with nothing, this other doc said she'd accept me. BTW--she called me back the same day I called her and had left a message. MMMM. Is it because she wants a new client? Maybe. I like to think it's because she's more responsible. Had another therapy session yesterday. I had slept through the time I was supposed to call him for my session--7pm. I was so tempted to just skip it. Later, my husband--who was at a wedding--called and asked how my session went. I told him I had slept through it. After some more resistance within myself, I realized I should call. I had been starting to get scattered during the week--wasting a lot of time on interesting things, but not moving forward. Luckily, he had a free hour and we talked. Tziporah
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Fri, 02-18-2011 - 9:46am
Sounds to me it's more likely that she's just more responsive, especially since she urged you to try to find out what is the deal with your other doc. Were you able to talk to your therapist about the situation and get his thoughts on it?

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Fri, 02-18-2011 - 2:34pm

I'm really glad you made that call.

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Mon, 02-21-2011 - 4:07pm
Hi Karen, I know. you're right. it was a good session actually, but as usual i'm finding it hard to put into practice what he suggests and advises. Like tonight, for example. sometimes girls from seminaries, who want to come for the Sabbath, when they call up, won't use our family name, (i.e., is this the Jones house?), but rather, will say: "is this the blind couple/blind lady?" my t. agreed with me that this is insulting, and that when they do it, I should educate them with something like: "I have a name. Please use it." Well, tonight one of those phone calls happened. Addmittedly, I was tired and preoccupied listening to the BBC and the breakning news about Lybia. Still--- When she called, I said: "Who?" in genuine surprise--my mind was so totally focused elsewhere. She was taken aback, and then said: "Uh, do you have girls for Sabbath?" She still didn't use my name. I suddenly felt so turned off by this girl. I coldly said, "No. I'm not." Usually I explain in some way why I'm not--house repairs, etc.--this time just said that and hung up. Punch line: after I did hang up, suddenly my t.'s words came roaring back into my mind. "Educate them when this happens." Question: why does it seem that we always forget to do what the t. says until AFTER the fact?! In other news, so to speak, I told my husband I had found another psychiatrist whom I'd like to work with. She speaks English, which is a definite advantage, and she seems more thorough. The only thing is, she is some distance away. Still, my feeling was to go to her. He said to give my psychdoc one more chance. Reluctantly, I agreed. I called up, got her voicemail and told her that if I hadn't heard from HER, not her secretary, within 48 hours, I'd go elsewhere. True, I was out of the house during the afternoon, but when I got back, there weren't any messages. I'm actually feeling better about finally breaking with her--something I've wanted to do for some time. Today I went to a friend's circumcision ceremony for her grandson. At first, I found myself seated at a table with people I really had nothing to talk to. I felt a bit bored. Then one of my friend's married daughter, who I haven't seen for ages, sat down next to me and we chatted throughout the meal. I ended up enjoying myself. Note: at first my husband just assumed I wouldn't want to go. I felt a bit insulted when he assumed this, but I really can't blame him for assuming this. I don't go out that much, not even to social events. Still biting my nails a lot. Not doing to much work of any kind. Feeling increasingly depressed and pressured about money tightening again and my husband is talking about it a lot. No energy, no belief in myself that I can run a business. Feeling like I'd just rather write than do all this coaching stuff. Lower back also hurting again. Tziporah
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Mon, 02-21-2011 - 6:52pm

Hi Tziporah,

I'm glad you have found a psychiatrist to work with.

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Registered: 08-07-2007
Tue, 02-22-2011 - 9:27am
Wow, the rudeness of some people astounds me. I cannot imagine calling anyone and asking for someone other than the person's name. :( I actually don't blame you for hanging up. lol

I'm glad you found another psychiatrist that you can work with. Even if she's a little further away, if she's responsive and you click well, that's a good thing.

I'm glad you had fun at the ceremony and had a good time at the meal. It's nice to be able to do things like that once in a while.

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Tue, 02-22-2011 - 11:55pm
Hi Amy, Well, I didn't hang up right away--first I said I wasn't available. Then I hung up. Laugh. I know these kids are young, but it still gets me mad. Like asking, "is that black person/the more offensive form, which is not allowed to be printed for good reason- there?" Nobody would get away with that, so why should they get away with this? But then, these girls weren't raised back then. Even so, you'd think there parents would have taught them a thing or two. They also tend to make gramatical mistakes that just bog the mind. I think in general education today is so much lowr in standards than it was when we were in school. For me, that was in the sixties. When were you in school? As to going out, it does help that the weather is nice. Still, on Monday, I was tempted almost not to go out--it had been raining. Finally, I forced myself. Yesterday, I had to go to my mil's to help out and today I have to go again. When I got there yesterday, my sister-in-law was there, so I really didn't have to go. I was tempted to leave right away, but in the end stayed and chatted with her for awhile. I had to go to be there when my mil-s physio was thee. When that was over, she came into the living room and I tried to communicate with her for awhile. Today there is another circumcision ceremony. It will be in a synagogue just down the street. Also, an hour before I have to go to my mil's for her speech therapy. the speech therapist actually encourages me to be there when she's getting her session. it's torture for me. it's so hard for her to communicate, to get the words out. Watching her struggle is so had! Tomorrow, I have the new psychiatrist's appointment in the morning. So, you could say, I really have been going out a lot this week. I'm glad that appointment is tomorrow, Thursday, because my regular therapy is Thursday night and I'll be able to tell my t. about it. I think we'll click. But to be honest, I'm a bit nervous about it. She indicated on the initial call that she wants me to go through some medical tests with a neurologist about the slurred speech thing and some blood tests about why I'm feeling so fatigued. I tell myself, remind myself, that this is really for my benefit, a good overall medical evaluation, which I haven't really had since starting the paxxil way back in 2001. Also, my husband had his whole medication protocol reviewed the last time he was in the hospital. That was in April, 2009. At the time it was very inconvenient--he was there for about a month. (you may recall my husband is a kidney transplant recipient.) Still, looking back, the hospital got him on a better meds routine than he had been using with his attending physician--who is actually quite good. So I know in my mind this can only be of benefit, even though it will be a hassle and cost money. As for the distance to her office, last night I reminded myself, that when it came to my husband'[s medical things, we had to go abroad. Compared to that, the distance I have to go is really nothing--a 45-minute car ride. My husband is getting tensed up about the tight money situation. I'm getting depressed about it. Feel like I'm trapped. Now the focus has moved on to Lybia, after Egyp0t's upheval. Still doing the same thing. Lying in bed all evening listening to the BBC, dozing on and off. They really repeat the same things, only occasionally mentioning a significant update--like when the interior minister resigned and defected--otherwise it's replays of interviews and clips for the most part. So there is no real reason to keep just lying around and not getting up to do things. Feeling depressed. But I don't think the meds would really make such a difference. Last night didn't even get up to take the paxxil. I know missing one night won't kill me. I mean, skipping one night isn't critical. I do know that getting into that habit can be tricky because of withdrawal effects. Just was too tired to get up. Tziporah
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Wed, 02-23-2011 - 7:04am
Hello, Amy, Since writing previous message, haven't done anything with business stuff. Watched a movie. Didn't go to the circumcission. Then went to my mil's. After that, watched another movie. Now about to have lunch. Just don't feel like working. Although I know I should. Tziporah
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Wed, 02-23-2011 - 10:01am
Ugh, yes. I agree that they should've been taught better by their parents. How sad.

I graduated high school in '88. So, yes, I'm still a "youngster", I sure don't feel like it though. lol

Good for you for staying at your MILs and chatting with your sister-in-law yesterday. We've talked about how it's good for you to get out. :) Your therapist will be glad too.

Have you scheduled those medical tests your T wants you to do? I know the money is tight, but your health is important and it's worth looking into especially if it'll give you some answers.

What movies have you been watching lately?

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