Did anyone save my swan song?
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|Mon, 04-07-2003 - 3:03pm|
With the new setup, I can't find my old swan song, on archive 25 (message 27?). If anyone saved it, can you email it to me? firstname.lastname@example.org. I want to post it elsewhere. It seems to have been helpful ... maybe it will help someone else.
As for me, I'm still healed - enough so that I completely forget I was ever abused, unless I am reminded by someone who needs comfort or guidance, or by peculiar circumstances. I live in a state of not-having-my-life-interefered-with-by-my-past. Let me say, that is more grace than I dared hope, by miles. And it is possible, because I live it. Every day.
My sons are both well and growing, I'm learning more and more each day about being a mother, wife, friend, human. It is humbling, and sometimes very scary. But all it takes for my heart to sing is to stand and look at the sky, the same way I did that first day I stepped free, and the tears of joy well up again.
It is truly amazing how flexible, powerful, potent, and resilient we humans are... some experiences are too much to survive, but yet, here you all are, not only still alive, but seeking wholeness in spite of not knowing (yet) if it is possible.
It has been so long, I have forgotten the exact text of my closing - but it was something like "good healing" ...
so, good healing, and I hope someone saved it. I would regret not finding it again.