Update on me & A big HOW ARE YOU?
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|Tue, 04-22-2003 - 3:08am|
I went to the doc today & got a prescription for the PMDD problems I've been having. I feel good about taking that step. I hate needing the medication, but at least it's a medication I can take only while I'm having the symptoms instead of all month long, and it's one that isn't usually associated with weight gain.
While I was there, I was filling the doc (actually a nurse practitioner) in on my history, and I was describing the PMDD problems I've been having, and she tossed out a few options for me--birth control pills, going back on zoloft or effexor, etc . . . and for each one, I had a weight concern, which I expressed to her. After I brought up the weight concern a couple of times, she stopped and said, "You're not carrying that much extra weight. Why are you so concerned about that?" It was a real shock, because that's not my body image at all. I feel like I look like I'm carrying *a lot* of extra weight.
When I am with other women in particular, I am always comparing myself and of course I never measure up. The standards I place on myself are always tougher than the ones I would place on anyone else. I would never judge someone for her weight, or dislike her for her weight. Yet that's the pressure I put on myself. Anyway, this experience with a real health professional telling me that I'm not carrying that much extra weight in such stark contrast with my own body image really tells me that I have a lot of work to do on body image.
And, I got a consult for some physical therapy for my pulled achilles tendon. I miss my running!!!
So, that's where I'm at. I would really love it if everyone would check in to just say how you're doing lately. So, HOW ARE YOU????