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|Tue, 04-29-2003 - 10:31am|
hi my name is laura, ,and im new here. i dont know where to start, all i know is that i needed to find a place i couldtalk to people who have been threw simalar things as i have. im an sa survivor from as far back as i can remeber. at age 5 i started realizing what was happening to me wasnt normal, but wasnt sure why. to this day i know of something that are very clear to me, others that are not, sometimes i will rember something that scares me to death and try to hide from it ,and i actualy forget about it, until my husband tells me about what i told him. i know that i had several abusers, including a cop, and i am just now realizing that there was also some saitanic sexual abuse as well but i dont recall much of it and that terrifies me. im also bipolar so sometimes i wonder what i rember is actualy things that happened or things in my mind. these past few days has beenso very hard on me, my husband is also an sa survivor and bipolar as well. plus we have three teens on top of that. i feel so totaly confused and out of countrol. these past few days i dont know up from down or visa versa . thank you for letting me post here and vent a little.