SA's effect on pregnancy and delivery?

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Registered: 05-14-2003
SA's effect on pregnancy and delivery?
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Fri, 07-04-2003 - 1:35am
I was wondering if some of you here could help me out with this. I've been wondering lately if the fact that I was sexually abused contributed to the difficulty of both of my pregnancies. Have any of you done reading or heard any theories on this?

I had C-sections with both; there weren't any major complications, other than my first being a breach (feet first). Both were scheduled; they waited to see if I would go into labor with my second, and I went two weeks overdue with no effacing or dilating, and she never dropped. I was deathly frightened both times of giving birth, probably more so than most people. I realize that there is always some anxiety over having a baby, but I really feel that I had more than what would be considered normal. That said, I wanted to birth naturally more than anything, but I think deep inside that fear was always there. When I would read the books explaining what happens to your body when you have a baby I would get sick to my stomach. Looking at the pictures seemed like porn to me.

Any connections that you know of? I've wondered if it has anything to do with not wanting to be hurt "down there." Also I was extremely traumatized after the second birth and have had fertility problems ever since. We always planned on 4 kids and she is now almost 11. I've had numerous tests done and they can't determine any particular reason why I should not be able to get pregnant. I'm not ovulating, but there doesn't seem to be any cause. They had me on hormones for a while and I had what I believe were 3 early stages miscarriages at about 5 weeks.

I'd appreciate any input. I haven't researched this yet or thought to ask my therapist about it. I think I will bring it up next visit.

Let me know what you think. Heidi

HeidiRose

co-cl, Sexual Abuse Healing Board

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Registered: 04-07-2003
Sat, 07-05-2003 - 1:36pm
I would imagine it has a lot to do with that. I did not end up being c-sectioned but they threatened it just before i ended up with a lot of stiches. My sons head would not turn and apparently i was not pushing right. They let me go as long as they could in labour, it was only at the last second and with forceps that i could give birth vaginally. I wish people would stop saying "naturally" because they are not created in a test tube or picked from a tree or something. Just because some women are forced to have c-sections does not mean it is not natural child birth. I think it's an unfair distinction.

And by the way if i had a little less self-control i'd have kicked at least one nurse in the head for insensitive treatment. And i'm pretty sure that relates back to my past, a lot of women have to have dilation checked but they don't all want to maim the perpetraitor. Hope any of this has helped. Good luck and Stay safe.
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Registered: 03-21-2003
Fri, 07-11-2003 - 12:50am
I don't know the answer to this question--but I'd love to hear whatever you found out about this. As you know, I lost one baby, and after that I had two high-risk pregnancies and had to be induced both times. I wonder sometimes if my high level of tension contributed to the inductions. I think that I had a lot of tension and fears about losing control over my body, and I believe that kept me from going into labor on my own.