Just wanted to let you know that I emailed you a few minutes ago when I saw your post.
I hope you don't do anything to hurt yourself; please call for some physical help if you feel yourself going out of control. In the meantime, please post here as often as you need to. We care and want to be a support to you.
Can you tell us more about yourself so that we can understand more about your situation? You can open up here; this is a safe place.
co-cl, Sexual Abuse Healing Board