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|Fri, 12-19-2008 - 3:49pm|
So another year and there is no way I am spending with family (well I have been told I am not invited anyway)
I am so fed-up of all the constant reminders of family, part of me is feeling quite angry and bitter that they are spending it together while the outcast (me) is just left out.
My aunt refused to have me there for xmas dinner, I was so hurt, I have never done anything to her it's just since the 'truth' has come out.
She sent me a card and money and I really, really, really didn't want to send her anything, but something got the better of me and I sent a card back (not that she in any way deserves one)
I really, really do not want to send my mother anything either but then again I am a nice person and feel bad if I don't (even though I have no reason to feel bad and the fact she said that "if I am alone for xmas it's my own fault")
Does anyone else understand such dilemmas?