I am losing it here..

I feel like the worst mom ever! i had my apt with Dr today and I felt better getting it all out he talked with my son and explained to me this is way more about me then him. That it is normal for children to experiment and as was said before children don't know something is wrong unless they are told so and its normal to be curious.

My son seems fine and unaffected by all this he understands it was wrong and we have talked and talked about this over the past few days not over doing it but gently brining things up and making sure he understands.

Well this evening we stopped by my sister inlaws and my niece asked if Casey could stay when we got ready to leave I said not tonight Hon. He had been in the other room with her and I kept my head reared to keep my eye on him. I feel almost like im thinking my son is the predator! Its making me feel all this from when my father molested me and i am feeling horrible for thinking this of my baby! and I'm trying to control my emotions and trying to stop feeling like this but here I sit downstairs trying to stop breaking down into tears as my husband and son are unaware of me feeling this upstairs! How do I make this feeling go away I hate myself for thinking of my son this way He is only 7! What kind of parent am, I!