Taking A Break
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|Sun, 03-22-2009 - 7:46am|
I really think I am going to take a break from counselling for a while and try to get on with my life and live a bit.
I was in group therapy for a year and have been one to one for a year, I am confused still and don't feel I am getting anywhere.
It's good weather here amd I am sick and tired of being sick and tired!!!!!!!!
I am not saying I don't need more healing but I just want to take time out to process things and not have to cry every week.
A couple of weeks ago my heart finally caught up with my head (my feelings matched my rational, logical side) and I really really understood that this wasn't my fault and I am not guilty at all or bad etc...
Now that revelation has come I want time out.
I just want to foocus on the good stuff in my life, I realised I have been so wrapped up in trying to fix problem after problem, I have not had a chance to just simply enjoy life and I feel I am missing out on life.
I could be in therapy another 10 years and that will be all my 30's gone, my 20's have been taken up with trauma, my childhood stolen, now I want to take back what is mine and choose to live how I want to.
I know I am still vulnerable but I think I'll be ok, I have a house move coming up and I can't deal with all this stuff in one go.
Has anyone here done that, how was it?
By the way how do I change my font style and colour so it's permantly one way