You wrote, "I sometimes also feel like due to the age I was when this particular abuse happened, and I didn't say anything it was in some way my fault, I know it sounds weird but that is how I feel." Oh girl, I think most of us on the board have felt this way. I know it took me years of therapy before I untangled those feelings so please understand you're not alone here.
I confess, I'm stumped on this one, too. I guess I don't know what you're trying to "pursue'. Healingjourney may have other thoughts but IMO a therapist with any sort of training in childhood sexual abuse would know how to proceed. I'm curious, what were you trying to find in your journaling? Could you sort of share a little more about what your counselor and you are trying to accomplish/pursue?
You started out