Does anyone else feel this way?
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Does anyone else feel this way?
| Wed, 02-09-2005 - 10:01am |
I don't consider myself to be a follower of any religion or other spiritual group such as pagan or shamen etc, nor do I attend a church of any kind and maybe that is part of my problem but I was wondering if anyone else has ups and downs in the way they feel about thier chosen path to God. I have really only 1 friend that I can discuss my beliefs with who seems to understand where I am coming from and who shares my beliefs and 2 others who share a few of my beliefs but with whom I don't discuss anything in depth. The 1 friend who shares my beliefs does not live local to me and I only get to see for a few hours every few months. When I'm with her I immediately feel my vibrations rise and feel recharged and enthusiastic about the spiritual path I have chosen to follow but this soon wears off and my vibrations become more dense and I start to feel my 'normal' self again. I meditate on and off depending upon when I have the time and at times I do feel like I have connected to something but not always.
My long term goal is to run workshops and classes and I have a teaching certificate from a well known UK spiritual writer to conduct workshops under her name but currently I lack confidence in my own ability to get these off the ground and haven't done anything to set this in motion yet though in a couple of months I would be free to do so. I can see myself doing it but when it comes to approaching someone about a venue etc I haven't been able to get up the courage to do it and feel that I won't be taken seriously.
I guess I was wondering if anyone else is like me? I would like to feel more of a connection to God and my spirit guides etc but I don't seem to be able to sustain it. Is this normal and does anyone think that joining a spiritual church would help? There is one close to where I live but once again I am scared that if I go everyone will know everyone else and I will be ignored. We are different in the UK and people are often stand offish and don't mix perhaps the way they would in America and I am also unsure what to expect if I do go, which makes it a little scary.
Please give me your thoughts.
Carol
My long term goal is to run workshops and classes and I have a teaching certificate from a well known UK spiritual writer to conduct workshops under her name but currently I lack confidence in my own ability to get these off the ground and haven't done anything to set this in motion yet though in a couple of months I would be free to do so. I can see myself doing it but when it comes to approaching someone about a venue etc I haven't been able to get up the courage to do it and feel that I won't be taken seriously.
I guess I was wondering if anyone else is like me? I would like to feel more of a connection to God and my spirit guides etc but I don't seem to be able to sustain it. Is this normal and does anyone think that joining a spiritual church would help? There is one close to where I live but once again I am scared that if I go everyone will know everyone else and I will be ignored. We are different in the UK and people are often stand offish and don't mix perhaps the way they would in America and I am also unsure what to expect if I do go, which makes it a little scary.
Please give me your thoughts.
Carol

I very often feel the same way, Carol. You are not the only one with these feelings of confusion or worry. I am in the process, however, of joining a group that meets once a month for the full moon and am hoping that this will help. I figure that by being with people of like-minds I can get the insight and understanding that I am searching for! :-)
Meditation also seems to help, just so that I can center myself and collect my thoughts.
It is a shame that your friend lives so far away that you only get to see them only once every few months! Do you at least get to chat online via instant messenger or talk on the phone? That might help if you made it a point once a week to meet at a certain time on-line and chat for a while. It might help you get those enthusiastic and good vibrations about your spiritual path and keep you going the direction you wanted to go.
I really hope that you find your way and feel more comfortable with yourself and your spiritual path!! I will keep you in my thoughts and please feel free to ask me anything.
Blessings,
Nicole
~Nicole
Hello! I don't know how much advice or ideas I may have, but I just wanted to share my support for your endeavors! How wonderful! I have a strong appreciation for people that are looking to conduct workshops-- b/c I am interested in doing it myself! :-) I always look at the Omega Institute catalog (a holistic center in NY, very interesting programs) and would LOVE to attend something. I've also been considering getting a Master's degree in Holistic Health, but I'm still weighing the options with that. It seems like then I would most likely have to go into business for myself, doing "alternative" healings...and possibly workshops! :-) I think I would love it, in many ways, especially since I feel like something is just not right for me where I am career-wise right now.
But anyway, I think it would be wonderful if you got involved in conducting workshops! :-) I don't know much about spirit guides, so I don't have much info to offer in that regard.
Best of luck to you!
Love,
~Victoria
Hi Nicole and thank you for your lovely posting, it has helped to know that I am not the only who struggles sometimes. My faith doesn't waiver but there are times when I feel that my everyday life has taken over so completely that I've lost the connection that feels so good when it is there.
My friend and I do e-mail one another but not so much of late as she has been quite ill and in hospital for a while during her fourth pregnancy and gave birth very prematurely to a lovely baby girl last week, which obviously is taking up all her time at the moment.
Coming to this board helps too and I know that I have to find the confidence to get out and about a bit more with like minded people.
Carol
Like yourself I feel that going along this path will inevitably mean working for myself and that in itself is scary, but no job I can imagine comes close in appealing to me compared to this.
Carol
I frequently feel alone and isolated in my beliefs as well. I do have one very good friend who's also Pagan, but on a very different path than mine. He's also 5000+ miles away. :-( I don't feel the pull to join any formal groups, but I do long for the conversation and exchange of information. Just that feeling of being around other people who understand where I'm coming from. That's why I found my way back to iVillage and these boards.
Definitely follow your heart with the workship thing. The fact that the last one you wanted to attend was arranged so easily is a good sign that it's meant to be. Once you've decided--and declared--that this is what you want to do, watch and see how quickly it comes about.
Good luck and keep us posted!
Carol;
By putting out into the universe your intentions, you have increased your self-image and self-esteem.
Blessed Be!
Laure-co-cl on migraines & headaches
Thank you for your lovely reply. I think you hit the nail on the head with this comment
"I don't feel the pull to join any formal groups, but I do long for the conversation and exchange of information." That is exactly how I feel.
Thank you also for the encouragement regarding the workshops. I have so many ideas for different ones I want to run both for groups and individuals and even one I would love to develop for overweight people that is so simple an idea I can't believe no one has thought of doing it workshop style before. I know I just have to find the confidence to take the first few steps towards this dream to make it all start to happen.
Carol
Hi Laure and thank you for your wonderful reply. I was feeling a bit down yesterday when I posted but today I am feeling much more positive. I have a few issues I need to resolve around my self-esteem but I am working on them. I also realise that I need to find the time to spend on meditation even when I feel like I don't have it. I spent some time today with a friend who has completly lost her way in life and has no direction whatsoever in any area of her life, she does not work, nor know what it is she wants to do, and has instead shut herself away and loses herself in fictional books hoping that someone or something will come along and force her to make a decision or do something to bring about changes in her life. I love this friend dearly and have tried many times to support her in making changes but she obviously is not ready and will not make changes until she is. However spending time with her today made me realise that I do have dreams and goals in my life that gives my life purpose and meaning and that I need to keep on moving forward towards them even if I am only taking baby steps.
Carol
Carol;
Glad to hear that you're feeling a bit more upbeat.
I have a friend who is in a similar situation.
Blessed Be!
Laure-co-cl on migraines & headaches
I follow the spiritual route, I livein New England
where people are mopre reserved than
California. A generalization, comparing to England. Keep your self
surrounded by like minded folks, try that church. I love Unity church.
People speak my language. Our vibrations are higher when surrounded
by higher vibrational people. the osmosis principle, read the spiritual masters,
the people you want to follow their paths or ways. I find there are more like
minded people around. IE: I was in a store. I told the sales lady I think the things
in my house that disappear have their own energy and are doing it. She said,
Maybe a different energy is doing it. we both knew we think alike.
This is happening to me all the time. I ask for it and it happens.
Pick up your confidence, no one is better than another, you are just fine.
Just move ahead in what feels right for you. Love, Leila