Afraid to live

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-11-2003
Afraid to live
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Mon, 05-02-2005 - 12:48pm

Hi All,

I've read some things lately about being in control of one's own life.

When I was younger, I remember thanking God for something, and then having it taken away. From that point on, I never thanked God for anything, for fear that it would be taken from me. I also never appreciated anything too much for the same reason. But I'm trying to change. Today, just sitting here, I said, "I love my life" and smiled. At that moment, I got a twinge of anxiety in my stomach because I STILL have that fear that if I appreciate something it will be taken away. I'm tired of living in fear!

How do I change? How do I get rid of that inner voice that refuses to let me enjoy life?

Thanks all,

Tracy

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Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: newisumom
Wed, 05-04-2005 - 8:08am
Hi Tracy,
You could read Echart Tolle's ( spell?) book, in the now.
You could do a ritual with friends: ie: find some stones
you like, put them next to a hot wok or something like that.
Put on some new agey music, candles, sit with firends,
pick your stones and hold them. Meditate
on what you want to get rid of, feel the energy going
to the stones in your hand. Go to the wok, one at a time .
Put the stone in water, then in the wok, it will sizzle, then sprinkle in
more water, it will steam, voila, up with the steam go the old fears.
Put up some affirmations. The past was but a moment in time, it does
not exist any more. Most of all keep thanking God and doing
what you are afraid of and you will build confidence. Love, Leila
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Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: newisumom
Wed, 05-04-2005 - 8:16am
PS. It is a normal thing in life that
things and people come and go. It
is normal to die and to lose, we always also gain.
The old saying, when the door shuts on us, the window opens
or another door.
We are learning lessons and to cope all the time,
do it in joy rather than fear when possible. When not
possible, know there is always a higher plan.
I used to think, when things got too good, it will crash.
I don't think that way any more, if I do, I will create the
crash with my thoughts. Fear is not coming from love.
It is either or. If there is fear, maybe the intuition is saying "no"
But that is another subject. Get out of your head,
GO PLAY. Love, Leila
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Registered: 05-20-2004
In reply to: newisumom
Wed, 05-04-2005 - 10:49am

My advice:

Shyla

  

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-11-2003
In reply to: newisumom
Wed, 05-25-2005 - 7:33pm
Thank you all so much for taking the time to respond to my post. My apologies for not thanking you sooner. I don't know, I think I felt I revealed too much information about myself and felt the need to flee! It was a depressing couple of weeks, but reading your responses helped immensely. I would like to stick around and return the favor by offering support and advice whenever I can too (and not just selfishly asking for insight on *my* issues!) What an inviting, accepting and non-judgmental board, full of positive thoughts and wonderful food for thought!
iVillage Member
Registered: 04-22-2003
In reply to: newisumom
Wed, 05-25-2005 - 8:13pm

I'm so glad that we were able to touch you in some way, and look forward to you returning the gift!


iVillage Member
Registered: 03-30-2005
In reply to: newisumom
Thu, 05-26-2005 - 11:22pm
Do not have time to read the other posted replies. Living serves an important purpose and is not to be denied , when there is something you would not do over a gain then that is no longer you, so do not condem yourself , remain under the grace and mercy of the Creator . There are the living dead and disembodied dead ,all are dead until made alive in Christ. The Creator knows your prayers before you ask and you are to ask thus drawing nigh unto him. With spiritual unfoldment you come into LIFE ,recogniseing you as a precious one enter into the only eternal family, the family of God. not by trying but by Hearts desire and He will enter and the seed of Christ will continue to grow within.As more truth is gained it will dispell the errors in the mind and purify the heart. Be still and you may realize or come to know God was with you in times past when you did not know it. And there was only one set of footprints that was Him carring you. Now have two sets of foot prints walking side by side. Ask the father to go before you each and every day. and during the day say father thou knowest. Precious one my heart tells me you are ok

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