Passing through .. *m
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| Sun, 05-08-2005 - 6:07pm |
Death. Passing on. Joining the angels. Went to be with the Lord. Wakes. Funerals. Relatives carrying on! The burial. The "returning" to the ground. Ashes to ashes. Dust to dust.
It's part of a human's legacy. We are not meant to stay here. I know that intellectually. I've been taught that in church. However, when it comes to "another person", I'm filled with trepidation. I hear it, and I can distance myself. I can face my own. (I came close in a car accident last month.) The thought of persons closest to me .. ?
My parents are elderly. Daddy's almost 77. Arthritis, colon cancer, hypertension. Schizophrenic. Ma, 67, Alzheimer's, diabetes, hypertension. Most days they're cute. HA! A lot of days I feel the realization I will lose them. We will eventually part. It's so weird in these moments, I regress to a 12 year old!
I'm the eldest daughter .. first born. There are days I am so unhappy, I'm weepy. I call them and babble helplessly. I'm not strong. I'm not reasonable.
I'm trying not to jump with worry about that. It hasn't happened .. yet. One can't prepare for it .. but ...
Any advice would be appreciated.
Cee 



(((Hugs))) Cee!! I always try to remind myself that I'm suffering much more than the person moving on. That I'm hurting because I'm being left behind. That where they are now, they're no longer in any pain or suffering.
It's not much, but I hope it helps a little.
(((Cee)))!!!
It stinks to feel that way...although I have to say, I feel that way too.
Shyla
Cee, I'm facing this moment soon, too.
Thank you all.
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