Passing through .. *m

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Registered: 09-27-2003
Passing through .. *m
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Sun, 05-08-2005 - 6:07pm

Death.  Passing on.  Joining the angels.  Went to be with the Lord.  Wakes.  Funerals.  Relatives carrying on!  The burial.  The "returning" to the ground.  Ashes to ashes.  Dust to dust.


It's part of a human's legacy.  We are not meant to stay here.  I know that intellectually.  I've been taught that in church.  However, when it comes to "another person", I'm filled with trepidation.  I hear it, and I can distance myself.  I can face my own.  (I came close in a car accident last month.)  The thought of persons closest to me .. ?


My parents are elderly.  Daddy's almost 77.  Arthritis, colon cancer, hypertension.  Schizophrenic.  Ma, 67, Alzheimer's, diabetes, hypertension.  Most days they're cute. HA!  A lot of days I feel the realization I will lose them.  We will eventually part.  It's so weird in these moments, I regress to a 12 year old!


I'm the eldest daughter .. first born.  There are days I am so unhappy, I'm weepy.  I call them and babble helplessly.  I'm not strong.  I'm not reasonable. 


I'm trying not to jump with worry about that.  It hasn't happened .. yet.  One can't prepare for it .. but ...


Any advice would be appreciated. 

 Cee 


 

 

152.6&n

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Sun, 05-08-2005 - 7:32pm

(((Hugs))) Cee!! I always try to remind myself that I'm suffering much more than the person moving on. That I'm hurting because I'm being left behind. That where they are now, they're no longer in any pain or suffering.

It's not much, but I hope it helps a little.

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Registered: 05-20-2004
Mon, 05-09-2005 - 4:12pm

(((Cee)))!!!


It stinks to feel that way...although I have to say, I feel that way too.

Shyla

  

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Registered: 04-22-2003
Mon, 05-09-2005 - 9:36pm

Cee, I'm facing this moment soon, too.


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Registered: 03-30-2005
Mon, 05-09-2005 - 11:33pm
those who become decease ( will not go into detail0 after which one is prepared for there next assignment ( detail includes drunks, stragglers, earth bound, suicide , those who learn to forgive or at least need help in forgiving, and much more. your conduct today determines your futhre wven hundreds of years from now//
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Registered: 09-27-2003
Tue, 05-10-2005 - 12:57pm

Thank you all.

 

 

152.6&n