Losing faith in everything.

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Losing faith in everything.
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Wed, 06-01-2005 - 7:22pm

Hi There.

I thought I would stumble into this message board community for some sort of advice/encouragement, really anything that can help me these days.

I am really lacking in my overall faith in life and everything along with it. I have just lost something. I`ve never been spiritual or religious, but I feel like I`m not excited about anything,..I`ve been gaining weight rapidly, I have opportunites all around me but i cant seem to get motivated or excited about them, Im just not happy with anything.

I have an opportunity to go away to college in Sept. but the things I need to do I just dont feel like doing! I`ve never been lazy, and its not a feeling of laziness...its an empty feeling.

I used to be energetic, motivated, extroverted and enthusiastic about everything - now, I just dont care.

Has this ever happened to you? Is there some sort of advice you can give me to life my spirits?

Courtney

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Registered: 06-20-2000
Thu, 06-02-2005 - 11:19am

Hey Robbyn!
My kind was straight chemical, not at all environmental/social, so all it took was experimenting to see which drug would fill the void. Zoloft didn't do the job, Paxil, nope, etc...even Wellbutrin didn't make much difference. Prozac did the job, though, completely.
I suspect it's different for everyone (as far as which one will work for them), but once I hit the right ingredients, lol, I was all set. Of course, if it's complicated by other depression causes, I can see that it would be harder to fix...

So I don't have any more difficulty with life changing events than anyone else would- just ask Barbara, LOL. Nearly lost all my eyesight a couple of years back!

You sound like anxiety might be one of your problems as well - what antidepressants have you tried? Things like Buspar?

I'm by no means an advocate of drugs (heck, I don't even like to take aspirin, lol), but in some cases, they can make all the difference in the world. If social/environmental causes are also present, I by no means think pharmacological solutions will be totally effective, and the sufferer needs to do their best to get the kind of help they need...but at least for me, a pill a day is all it takes (I actually did try therapy, many times with different therapists, they told me I really just needed drugs, lol. Said that otherwise, I was fine!)

As for the fear & anxiety... I have my own take on a lot of that. Seen Farenheit 911?

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Registered: 05-26-2004
Thu, 06-02-2005 - 3:00pm
I am so sorry to hear about your eyesight! Makes my whining seem so insignificant! I do have anxiety problems....more of a worrying problem I think. I have tried every antidpressant known to man and Buspar and also the heavy stuff like Xanax...which I hated the most. They even doubled doses of antidepressants and put me on 2 kinds at once which made me manic, so I quit with all the drugs and decided to try things on my own to calm myself down.
As you can see by my posts, I have a serious problem with politics and the "administration" in office right now too. I have seen Fahrenheit 9/11 and it scared me too. Funny how all that seemed so insignificant and just disappeared off the face of the Earth when Bush went back into office...he worked very hard to get everyone to focus on other problems around the globe instead of focusing on the problems in the good ol' USA. I see quite a bit more of our little monarchy because I live in Florida and have to deal with his brother on a regular basis too. One big example: Terri Schiavo.
I have realized now that it is something I will probably deal with the rest of my life and the most important thing to do is to listen and learn. Take the advice of others and learn by trial and error. I will probably always worry enough for almost everyone!
Looking at what you are going through with your eyesight and what others have dealt with that are far worse than my problems, I believe I can handle it, but it always helps to talk to others when I don't feel in control to get me back on track and everyone on this board is always so helpful and caring!
Thanks for your info!
Blessings,
Robbyn
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Thu, 06-02-2005 - 3:46pm

(hugs), Robbyn!

My 911 reference was actually intended to take a shot at our culture - we really do have a society based on fear - founded or unfounded. How often are the weather guys right anyway? Maybe do your best to avoid too much checking of the weather (or the news, for that matter)? If a real biggie is comin' at ya, you'll hear about it anyway - why give yourself extra opportunity to ruminate?

I'm so sorry you're not as quick & easy a "fix" as I was - sounds like you've been down that road & back again. It really is true, isn't it? Everyone has their "thing" - mine is my eyes, your is your anxiety/depression... everyone's got their hurdles to deal with...

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Registered: 02-27-2004
Thu, 06-02-2005 - 3:51pm

Hi Robbyn, ((((Hugs)))) sorry to hear about your depression. I've been there too but mine was in direct response to a major life event and lasted about 2 years. As you do the usual meditation etc to calm your mind the only other suggestion I can offer is writing about how you feel. I find that it really helps me (in fact more so than meditation). I do this as often as I feel the need but at least once a week. I've tried journaling on the web but it doesn't work for me unless it's good old pen and paper. It really helps me to get things into perspective and I often get insights about why I do things or react in a particular way to something. I've also on occasions found that I am holding on to some things and why I'm doing it. It makes me laugh at myself sometimes, especially when I look back on it much later. When I was suffering with the depression I wrote almost daily. Much of it was regurgitated but it really did help because it made it somehow more concrete. On some occasions when I've really needed to get something out my system I have even written it all done, sometimes going back and writing more for days until I feel that absolutely everything I want to 'talk' about is down on paper and then I have performed a little ritual where I symbolically burn it the healing silver/violet flame. On these occasions I have actually burnt it all and have felt a releasing when it's done.

Blessings Carol

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Thu, 06-02-2005 - 5:58pm
That is so true about 9/11. How we are absorbed by fear. I know I am one that gets sucked into it everytime. I tried doing the whole avoid the TV thing last summer. It worked last year, but what stunk was the constant updates during the shows I watched, listening to the radio and hearing it constantly. It's all over the place! I even went to Walmart today and all the advertised crap was for hurricane supplies because they are having a statewide taxfree week for hurricane supplies! It's just insane!
Funny, I was watching a show on National Geographic about a small town in Italy. It was so quaint and people just went about their business in their little village. They didn't have much like we do, but they are so calm and satisfied. I am starting to long for a place like that...
I definitely have to find a better way to tune out all that crap and just take it one day at a time. If I have to leave, maybe it was God's intentions!
Thanks again for your help!
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Thu, 06-02-2005 - 6:00pm
Thanks Carol for the advice!
I used to write alot, but I haven't been doing much of it lately. Maybe I should get back to it again.
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Fri, 06-03-2005 - 1:07am
You may be interested in going to health and well being and then on top right side sharing love and prayer and read Ira ` , Ira 2 now if this is to fundamental for you it will get perhaps more welcome as more ira continues. thanks for your coments and also from some others. I need guidance as to corrections and explanations and changes, critism etc always welcome Here is a taste of Ira 35 The Poluted Human Hearts The poluted human hearts start with a roar in forceful ways, or a roar in quiet ways, but they must end in death on a wisper. They deplete their own existence in apparent joy and sorrows, roaring in living without LIFE. Through the mixtures and errors they sap the vital force into a foul stench that reaches the heavens. Polluted human hearts are often productive and very busy in the world with various degrees of deception- even some with self-deception. They exalt all sorts of plans and ideas and with concepts exercise immeasureable evils through the minds of the flesh. Promoting sense thoughts and actions they have no real rest. You may find them confused and ignorant. you may find them as industrial, political or religious giants in all avenues of living. They run their course of sin and death. This is the wages they receive. What a dark and obscure price to pay with no refuge. Yet hordes are gathered together - the blind leading the blind. they have no genuine feeling and are deaf to the Way of Life; they are not genuine,and therefore false. IICoriathians 11:13 Galatians 2:4,5, II Peter 2:1 Polluted human hearts twist and turn in the bed of hell. They cater to untruths, foster untruths, and when possable twist the Truth. They are full of pride, anguish, and deceive each other along with countless other sins. As their self-deception increases to believe a lie, they muster strength from their erroneous self. They reasses and roar as a lion to devour. Yet other polluted hearts deceive with a small voice tender lying care, enticeing many to their beck and call. Jer 9;5 14;14 16;19 23;14,32 28;15 Ezekiel 13 Dan 11;27 Perilous times are at hand. The conetinual upheaval of centuries past is never at a loss for new candidates. I Timoethy 4;1-8 The polluted human hearts are degenerated wayward ones with self-mind in the erronious direction. The demons and adversary are ever available to the polluted human heart. We observe the rotten fruit of the wicked, sinful,-the outright deceit of the polluted human hearts who plunder, rob, steal, ad infinitum. Some atre known by their evil eye, and disater strikes in extended prostituted ways. Their downfall awaits them yet, though they know it not. The senses rule their life, and they have not life, but death. They were robbed or robbed themselves. They heeded good and evil and repulsed the Genuine Good, turning into beasts and animals, by the magic wand of the Price of Darkness. Ezekiel 44;10,15-28 48;11 We have polluted human hearts - many with good deeds and many very polite. You find lots who are even calm as the sea and yet violent as the storm. They have a human love which can be cruel. Lamenations 4:3 But it is enough to say there is no Genuine Good in the poolluted human hearts. Some exercise charm, poise and character even rising to the moon and stars. Yet these counterfits ever extend or promote their choicest desires. A dark cave awaits those who come into their grip. there is also the good - but not Genuine Good - in the polluted hearts of religious whores and harlots - the ones who hide their egos or even openly display them in the exercise of their wicked good- all that is not Genuine Good is a lighter form of darkness or darkness itself. All lighter forms of darkness are still darkness. James 2;10 Mathew 23 Polluted human hearts are the living dead. We have heard it said. 'Let the dead bury the dead. All are made alive only in Christ. These creeps promoting a creeping death, striving in such wicked ways that the flesh and blood Awareness or consciousness is obscure from God's Activity. Luke 11;52 When one finishes his or her sojourn in the mortal world they may cry out in deathly despair. Yet, they can come out by inviting The Spirit of Christ and learning to fear God. To fear God one must leave or hate the self life and his evil deeds and the evil atmosphere of such habitat. One must leave evil and enter good,- that is, prefer good over evil. Yet, remember good is on the same tree as the evil, for to eat of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil is death. Psallm 37;27 Proverbs 16;17 Math 25;41 THOSE who are willing to give up eating of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil are eligible to eat of The Tree of LIFE--the LOVE of GOD. So, the self-life must reach a certain level before it can be exchanged. Yes, it is time for a change- But When? II Corinthians 6;2 Yes, the self life can be exchanged for THE REAL LIFE IN CHRIST. Whether it is a dark evil or dark good, the height of The I- the self will must be traded in for or be sold for the Christ LIFE. the requirement is a turnabout. To hate ones own liiving- to lay aside or repulse ones own will in your own life on many levels of institutions , organizations, religions, etc, invites an activity of God in you that you never dreamed possible. mathew 19;16-30 Romans 8:31-39 This is the surrender to Divine Will for a purging , purifying , cleansing process tailored to rid and correct to impart understanding. Proverbs 4;7 It is a bit of rest, a load removed, a Peace, a burden taken away by the Master and a process opened up and begun to grow fram a child to a son and even beyond to ONENESS. Blessed are the Pure in Heart for they shall see God;;; Mathew 5;8 11;28-30 Job 23;10-17 42;5,6 John 14;27 ZRomans 8;14-21,29 Hebrews 2;10 5;9 7;25 Yes we have ONE who came to give LIFE. Some hearts, when ready, fear the living death, repulse the wicked ways in themselves and others, and thus they invite The Spirit of Christ and may avail themselves for the regenerative process. John 10;10 Colossians 1:10-29 34;2-12 ( today reminder living serves a very important purpose which is to gain LIFE) (Free Choice remains)
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Fri, 06-03-2005 - 1:31am
keeping you and others in mind and let I M the lorax know if you will to read 18 0r is it 19 included Ira 35 for some with greater understanding also you may want to try Health & Well Being messages, first section top right under Shareing Love & Prayer on Ira 1 then Ira 2 can send more will try sending some of which just wrote the past weeks. appreciate the forums and the wonderful responses and contributers , i do not spell good and poor in english , would like to know if Interest would be to receive more of Ira 1 to Ira 62 The Lords Dollar retains its value (by ira aslo Heart Study, Rest,Firmness,Changing garmets,The hidden Hand,etc) will also send some info from Ida M who lived 1884 to Dec 1948 in which I spent over 10 years in searching for her writen works would appreciate approval or critism or and correction imperfect ira
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Fri, 06-03-2005 - 7:08am
Hey! Go pop over to Simple Living! http://messageboards.ivillage.com/iv-ppsimplicity
That's exactly what they're trying to do...live more simply...
(hugs)

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