Losing faith in everything.
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| Wed, 06-01-2005 - 7:22pm |
Hi There.
I thought I would stumble into this message board community for some sort of advice/encouragement, really anything that can help me these days.
I am really lacking in my overall faith in life and everything along with it. I have just lost something. I`ve never been spiritual or religious, but I feel like I`m not excited about anything,..I`ve been gaining weight rapidly, I have opportunites all around me but i cant seem to get motivated or excited about them, Im just not happy with anything.
I have an opportunity to go away to college in Sept. but the things I need to do I just dont feel like doing! I`ve never been lazy, and its not a feeling of laziness...its an empty feeling.
I used to be energetic, motivated, extroverted and enthusiastic about everything - now, I just dont care.
Has this ever happened to you? Is there some sort of advice you can give me to life my spirits?
Courtney

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Hey Robbyn!
My kind was straight chemical, not at all environmental/social, so all it took was experimenting to see which drug would fill the void. Zoloft didn't do the job, Paxil, nope, etc...even Wellbutrin didn't make much difference. Prozac did the job, though, completely.
I suspect it's different for everyone (as far as which one will work for them), but once I hit the right ingredients, lol, I was all set. Of course, if it's complicated by other depression causes, I can see that it would be harder to fix...
So I don't have any more difficulty with life changing events than anyone else would- just ask Barbara, LOL. Nearly lost all my eyesight a couple of years back!
You sound like anxiety might be one of your problems as well - what antidepressants have you tried? Things like Buspar?
I'm by no means an advocate of drugs (heck, I don't even like to take aspirin, lol), but in some cases, they can make all the difference in the world. If social/environmental causes are also present, I by no means think pharmacological solutions will be totally effective, and the sufferer needs to do their best to get the kind of help they need...but at least for me, a pill a day is all it takes (I actually did try therapy, many times with different therapists, they told me I really just needed drugs, lol. Said that otherwise, I was fine!)
As for the fear & anxiety... I have my own take on a lot of that. Seen Farenheit 911?
As you can see by my posts, I have a serious problem with politics and the "administration" in office right now too. I have seen Fahrenheit 9/11 and it scared me too. Funny how all that seemed so insignificant and just disappeared off the face of the Earth when Bush went back into office...he worked very hard to get everyone to focus on other problems around the globe instead of focusing on the problems in the good ol' USA. I see quite a bit more of our little monarchy because I live in Florida and have to deal with his brother on a regular basis too. One big example: Terri Schiavo.
I have realized now that it is something I will probably deal with the rest of my life and the most important thing to do is to listen and learn. Take the advice of others and learn by trial and error. I will probably always worry enough for almost everyone!
Looking at what you are going through with your eyesight and what others have dealt with that are far worse than my problems, I believe I can handle it, but it always helps to talk to others when I don't feel in control to get me back on track and everyone on this board is always so helpful and caring!
Thanks for your info!
Blessings,
Robbyn
(hugs), Robbyn!
My 911 reference was actually intended to take a shot at our culture - we really do have a society based on fear - founded or unfounded. How often are the weather guys right anyway? Maybe do your best to avoid too much checking of the weather (or the news, for that matter)? If a real biggie is comin' at ya, you'll hear about it anyway - why give yourself extra opportunity to ruminate?
I'm so sorry you're not as quick & easy a "fix" as I was - sounds like you've been down that road & back again. It really is true, isn't it? Everyone has their "thing" - mine is my eyes, your is your anxiety/depression... everyone's got their hurdles to deal with...
Hi Robbyn, ((((Hugs)))) sorry to hear about your depression. I've been there too but mine was in direct response to a major life event and lasted about 2 years. As you do the usual meditation etc to calm your mind the only other suggestion I can offer is writing about how you feel. I find that it really helps me (in fact more so than meditation). I do this as often as I feel the need but at least once a week. I've tried journaling on the web but it doesn't work for me unless it's good old pen and paper. It really helps me to get things into perspective and I often get insights about why I do things or react in a particular way to something. I've also on occasions found that I am holding on to some things and why I'm doing it. It makes me laugh at myself sometimes, especially when I look back on it much later. When I was suffering with the depression I wrote almost daily. Much of it was regurgitated but it really did help because it made it somehow more concrete. On some occasions when I've really needed to get something out my system I have even written it all done, sometimes going back and writing more for days until I feel that absolutely everything I want to 'talk' about is down on paper and then I have performed a little ritual where I symbolically burn it the healing silver/violet flame. On these occasions I have actually burnt it all and have felt a releasing when it's done.
Blessings Carol
Funny, I was watching a show on National Geographic about a small town in Italy. It was so quaint and people just went about their business in their little village. They didn't have much like we do, but they are so calm and satisfied. I am starting to long for a place like that...
I definitely have to find a better way to tune out all that crap and just take it one day at a time. If I have to leave, maybe it was God's intentions!
Thanks again for your help!
I used to write alot, but I haven't been doing much of it lately. Maybe I should get back to it again.
That's exactly what they're trying to do...live more simply...
(hugs)
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