QOTW-9/19 What do you project?

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QOTW-9/19 What do you project?
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Sun, 09-18-2005 - 10:06pm

I went to a concert this evening at my local Unity church.  I've been going there on and off for years, but hadn't been there since before my eye surgery a couple weeks ago.  I've always felt like I wasn't really an integral part of the community, a bit isolated and marveled at the fact no one ever seemed to know my name, even though we wear name tags.


One of the men I know approached me and told me he noticed how beautiful my eyes were this morning, that I just seemed to glow.  I told him I had had the cataract surgery and I was seeing very well and maybe that had something to do with it.  This evening, I met several older women who I had never really noticed before, and really hit it off with one of them. 


It's occurred to me that my perception of my world through the greying blindness of the cataract was what I was projecting to those in my world.  I was invisible, or at least fuzzy, to those around me because that's what I was seeing.  I created my own reality, in that if I could not see, surely I couldn't be seen, so I acted out my isolation and blamed others.  Today, I am so much more aware of my world, of the colors and the clarity.  I smile a lot more and I look at people with recognition.  I see them and I let them see me.


What do you project to others in your world?  Are you looking through a veil of greyness, too?  Are you angry?  Lonely?  Insecure?  Are you grateful? Soul-deep happy? Do others see you the same way you see yourself? 


Looking forward to your responses...


Bink


 




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Registered: 03-26-2003
Mon, 09-19-2005 - 12:07am

I always perceived myself as the shy, quiet, wallflower type who really wasn't noticed or important... until the last couple years.

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Registered: 11-11-2004
Mon, 09-19-2005 - 6:38am

Bink, how wonderfully profound! You (it must seem) have a whole new world and outlook to face each day with. That's great news, good for you.

Nothing like a revelation to improve the quality of life, eh?

Betsy

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Registered: 12-23-2003
Mon, 09-19-2005 - 8:04am

I told him I had had the cataract surgery and I was seeing very well and maybe that had something to do with it.

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Registered: 11-11-2004
Mon, 09-19-2005 - 8:40pm

I can just imagine a guy going, 'hey, you're beautiful...'in a deep husky lust filled voice, and Bink going 'I just had cataract surgery, thank you'. What a howl! Ghad woman.

Betsy

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Registered: 04-22-2003
Mon, 09-19-2005 - 10:11pm

You guys are on the wrong track!


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Registered: 11-11-2004
Mon, 09-19-2005 - 11:07pm

Then I project that the next UNMARRIED man will tell you you smell really good and you'll say, 'thanks, I took a bath' lol.

Betsy

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Tue, 09-20-2005 - 7:25pm
I am happy for your experiences and surgical recovery.
I know much in life is my perception.
I am actually a bit bored at Unity, lately, it is my favorite church, like
life in general, things change, the music director changed, people change,
sometimes it seems like same old. Some times people are friendly,
I always attempt to meet people. My ears hold me back when it is loud, I back off.
it is then too noisy.
I also believe people can come to me, I have spent my life being outgoing
and reaching out. I feel more laid back now. I may be older but I look good,
I smile a lot, I glow. So, it is not always us. How do people perceive me?? your ?
I only know that I feel loved, also when I left my job and returned in 3 weeks, I found out
how much people love me there. I am grateful and I feel damn good. I don't feel insecure,
yet I can feel shy in crowds. at Unity I talk to everyone I know and look around,then
go home. There were times Unity was the highlight of my week. I am not needing
as much outside of myself. I think. for today anyways!!!!!!!! Love, Leila
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Registered: 12-23-2003
Wed, 09-21-2005 - 9:16am
My bad!

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Registered: 04-22-2003
Wed, 09-21-2005 - 10:43am

I have a lot higher standard than just "unmarried"