Gargoyles, Glasses and Gossip .. *m
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| Thu, 09-29-2005 - 8:09am |
Hi, gang ..
On the eve of my 44th birthday, I find I'm just as sensitive to name calling as I ever was. I work in a manufacturing area (200 + people). I work where anything is food/fodder for those bored people breaking together. I have friends who'll tell me if I'm part of discussion. (I'm still up in the air on whether I can take this or not.) One of my male friends passed on to me that I was part of a "discussion" going on. I've been wearing my handy, trusty "cokes" until my contacts came in. As long as I could see, that shouldn't be a problem, right? This friend is kind of blunt, so he stated one of the sentences was I "looked like a gargoyle". Hmmm ... OK, fine. I'm not the prettiest thing on the planet with my glasses. Next, I am freespirited and outgoing, but there are times my personality is misconstrued. I smile, I don't always wear what's considered "modest" to the masses. Should I wear clothing all the way up to my chin? Somehow, I don't think that would help since I am rather curvy! I flirt a little. Heck, I am married! I break by myself or with 1- 2 people. (and that's not every day! I enjoy my company and solitude!) An unnamed male stated he took me out to lunch ... for dessert! Knowing this isn't true didn't stop the anger and the tears. I'm aware jealously comes from different avenues, and I know I'm not any different from anyone other woman whose "attributes" are compared with other. I guess it's the fact that a friend had knowledge. I'm still mad and hurt by it. Yes, I'll take this hurt and make positive energy of it. I'll focus it on my school work (another negative where I should be prepared to work until I drop dead!) Grumble, grumble .. fuss, fuss.
Here, I vented (safely) to my online family and I still feel the tears! I could sure use some prayers so I can direct this into a positive situation. This too shall pass, thand the Lord! I can only get stronger.
Thanks.
Edited 9/30/2005 3:53 pm ET ET by cl-theladycee


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