Loosing Faith

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Registered: 12-04-2005
Loosing Faith
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Sun, 12-04-2005 - 6:54pm

Hello,

This is my first time here and the first time that I feel I am able to express my true inner thoughts. I am always the positive one to everyone and always trying to be inspirational one.....I don't want to burden friends with my issues. I now need to express my thoughts, thank you in advance for listening.

To make a long story short, I have worked hard and thought that I paid my dues in life (delt with many struggles) and reached a point that I have strived for. A great career, a home, financially stable and a committed relationship. Unfortunately the career, the home and the financial stablility was tied into my relationship because when that ended, I lost it all and have had to start over. If I knew that all of my hard work would have gone to someone else, I would have done things differently.

Now that I am starting over, I am literaly having to climb that struggling ladder again and it just isn't going anywhere. I have always been very hopeful and faithful that everything happens for a reason and will turn out okay in the end.....but one can only hold onto that belief for so long if things just aren't working out for you. I try to feel the spirit of everything I have believed in (god, angels, spirit guides), but I just feel alone and that no one is really there for me. Don't get me wrong, I have alot of friends and am very social, I just feel my faith and all I believe in (god, angles, spirit guides) are just not there for me and question if they really exist....at least for me.

Sincerely,

Transition-Girl

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Mon, 12-05-2005 - 6:02pm
This is a very difficult planet to live on, you may feel alone
but you are not, your spirit guide is always with you and
the angels know it is a hard time for you. Some time in the future you will realize
that it wasn't meant to be and you will rebuild and it will really be very good
until the next situation when we are forced to grow. I have been there.
Hugs, be good to yourself. It will pass, Have faith, ask for love and hugs.. Love, Leila
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Registered: 03-09-2001
Wed, 12-07-2005 - 11:02am

I have found in the ups and downs of my life so far that the very times when things are NOT going well, is EXACTLY the time for me NOT to lose sight of my spiritual practices and worship time. That's when I need the Goddess the most. She is with me, no matter whether I acknowledge Her presence or not, but it's much easier to chug along through pain, hurt, and struggles, when I DO open myself to Her presence and love.

It's the hardest time of all, to keep faith with your beliefs, because the tough stuff in life makes you want to doubt. The way I see it, though, spiritual faith is for helping us through major changes, the painful growth spurts in our life, and the tough times. It's an important tool to keep us forcused and not get sucked into depression and giving up. And to remember there is much MORE than just what's here in this physical realm. ;)

Hang in there. Hold tight to your beliefs. Have faith.

Hugs,
Gypsy



Blessings,

Gypsy

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Registered: 05-07-2004
Thu, 12-08-2005 - 12:54pm

Hello transition-girl,

I just read your post and had to respond...

First let me say that I think at one time or another we have ALL been there. Maybe not the same situation, but in the ways of this world loss is loss no matter what or who...kwim?

You posted...<<>>

But would you have, really?

You sound to be a lot like me, always the optomist, making sure that everyone feels good about themselves or thier situation. Being that extra large shoulder to those in need. (I could go on and on, but I won't LOL!)
I know that I wouldn't change my life for a minute. I have done what I have done for one reason...to get where I am. Even if its only for a minute, and then on to something else.
It has made ME who I am proud to be...loving, caring, strong and most importantly...ME.
There is no other that is me.

When I went through my transition, my faith was greatly tested. I turned my back on almost everything in my life (with the exeption of my dd) for almost a year. When I realized that I had lost all of the qualities that made me ME, I was so upset and angry and most of all hurt. I wanted so badly to blame it on anything or anyone, but there wasn't any one thing (or person) to blame. So I just held on to all that anger and frustration.
I pushed even farther away from faith. Then one day, when I thought that my actions would have not one single friend or relative on my side (and believe me...I had done some overly stupid things, earth shattering even...) the last person I thought who would be there for me was in fact THERE.

Just one little glimmer of hope was all it took. In less than a year, I was in a new career, had a new baby, and my marriage was rock solid. I am a much better person today for that year of my life.
I learned that no matter what, I wouldn't be as "aware" had I not had the experience.
It is all about the journey and what we do with it after all.
How boring would that journey be without its peaks and valleys? Sometimes we tend to lose our way, but eventually we are led back to where we need to be. Growing and learning doesn't always mean moving forward.

I will be praying and sending you some positive thoughts your way.

V :)

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Registered: 03-30-2005
Fri, 12-09-2005 - 1:39am
Being alone for years even among others when leaving religion behind and inviting a spiritual Life. Share with you Dedicate in love and service along with others and intercessary prayer............................ in the mist of trouble you can be in
peace and joy./////Within you comes forth to my mind the precious one that you
are.do not accept yourself as in the past, Realize right now that you are a
great treasure(no pride)///Keep the excellent spirit of being a
child-son-daughter of the Most High///What you walk away from God will lead you
,(instruction).In which you will follow and determine the futhure you
create,(Holy Spirit guidance). In closing God will treat you better than you
will treat yourself written by ira krause.......the capacity of many precious ones to preform (even though some errors will happen)For these precious doers that do not allow ignorance to control both in life and death.///////It is a known and proven fact that that the processes of life are operative.The conflict that arises in spiritual birth ,identified at the inflow of spiritual energies,enables the ego to take conscious mastery over the mental ,soul, and physical forces,establishing as a result the purity of consciousness essential to function the Christ Seed. The Christ seed is the physical result of the Christed ideas realized as living principles of being. That is to say thatideas of Truth .actualized in words and acts, react to form the essences of spirit, the principle of form being in the will of man. (thank you precious ones) When the will ot thought, word, and act is conformed to the Truth,Divine Will is identified, by which the spiritual essences developed are formed as the nucleus of the body to be.sent by