Encounter with a Spirit

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Encounter with a Spirit
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Sat, 01-14-2006 - 9:44pm

I have explained in other posts the kind of stress that is in my life right now. I have Bipolar Disorder, Type II; GAD, Social Anxiety, Insomnia, SAD, moderate to severe asthma, and arthritis with no health insurance. I get my mental health meds covered with samples from the doc except for one that I get a discount on. THe other of my meds I get when I can afford to. We are having EXTREME finacial difficulties. We may be getting an eviction notice at home and at my dh's office. We have a very short time to come up with money to cover my storage in Oregon and dh's in Vancouver, BC or they will sell everything. We are about $150,000 in debt. Then there is my dh's emotional affair that I discovered on Oct. 29, 2005. And that's all on top of my normally high stress level due to my children. So, that gives you some idea of what's going on.

For the last week, I have been feeling, physically, a spirit on the bed behind me. My dh comes to bed after me. When I start reading my silly romance novel of the week, I start relaxing into getting ready for sleep, but I am very awake still. Yet, this week, each night that this has happened. I can feel someone behind me. The covers push down just as they would if someone was sitting on them behind me. I "feel" a presence. I wasn't really sure that I was really feeling this until two nights ago. I then tried to figure out who the spirit was. It wasn't someone who was making themself "clear," if you know what I mean. I thought it was probably my grandmother who had been a mother to me when my own mother was unable to. So, I decided that I'd talk to Grandma even if the spirit wasn't her as I needed to. I just kind of talked through what was going on and what we were doing about it. I relaxed just telling her about it. Because I got no response but a hand on my shoulder, I still am not 100% it was her.

When I told my dh about it last night, he asked me if it was a man or a woman. I instictively said female immediately without thinking about it. He then said it could have been my grandma, his mother, or my baby, Taylor. It wasn't Taylor. I knew that. She touches this other part of me, not the practical side, the totally emotional side. So, it could be my grandmother or dh's sweet mother. My dh said immediately after listing the three of them that it was Velma, my grandmother.

I guess it really doesn'I'm not sure if this will be something that will bother some of you, so I made sure that I noted exactly what this post is about in the title.

I can't begin to tell you what stress is in my life right now. I have Bipolar Disorder, Type II; GAD, Social Anxiety, Insomnia, SAD, moderate to severe asthma, and arthritis with no health insurance. I get my mental health meds covered with samples from the doc except for one that I get a discount on. THe other of my meds I get when I can afford to. We are having EXTREME finacial difficulties. We may be getting an eviction notice at home and at my dh's office. We have a very short time to come up with money to cover my storage in Oregon and dh's in Vancouver, BC or they will sell everything. We are about $150,000 in debt. Then there is my dh's emotional affair that I discovered on Oct. 29, 2005. And that's all on top of my normally high stress level due to my children. So, that gives you some idea of what's going on.

For the last week, I have been feeling, physically, a spirit on the bed behind me. My dh comes to bed after me. When I start reading my silly romance novel of the week, I start relaxing into getting ready for sleep, but I am very awake still. Yet, this week, each night that this has happened. I can feel someone behind me. The covers push down just as they would if someone was sitting on them behind me. I "feel" a presence. I wasn't really sure that I was really feeling this until two nights ago. I then tried to figure out who the spirit was. It wasn't someone who was making themself "clear," if you know what I mean. I thought it was probably my grandmother who had been a mother to me when my own mother was unable to. So, I decided that I'd talk to Grandma even if the spirit wasn't her as I needed to. I just kind of talked through what was going on and what we were doing about it. I relaxed just telling her about it. Because I got no response but a hand on my shoulder, I still am not 100% it was her.

When I told my dh about it last night, he asked me if it was a man or a woman. I instictively said female immediately without thinking about it. He then said it could have been my grandma, his mother, or my baby, Taylor. It wasn't Taylor. I knew that. She touches this other part of me, not the practical side, the totally emotional side. So, it could be my grandmother or dh's sweet mother. My dh said immediately after listing the three of them that it was Velma, my grandmother.

I guess it really doesn't matter if it was Grandma or Mum. They gave me a touch to my soul when I needed it most.

Steph


"In the first place, God made idiots. That was for practice. Then he made school boards."


-Mark Twain


 

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Sat, 01-14-2006 - 11:22pm
did not see any replies so not knowing exactly what to say. Have a very interesting Bi-polar friend who cannot take much pressure, however writes very good poetry and can carry on serval very interesting conversations. Also very neat and clean. A spender can not hold on to any money and smokes a lot otherer wise very nice person. trust you receive the proper medication and good fellowship,May some peace and comfort come upon and in you. in the mist of trouble you can be in
peace and joy./////Within you comes forth to my mind the precious one that you
are.do not accept yourself as in the past, Realize right now that you are a
great treasure(no pride)///Keep the excellent spirit of being a
child-son-daughter of the Most High///What you walk away from God will lead you
,(instruction).In which you will follow and determine the futhure you
create,(Holy Spirit guidance). In closing God will treat you better than you
will treat yourself written by ira
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Sun, 01-15-2006 - 2:57pm

How wonderful that this spirit was there for you and was able to give you the lift that you needed, just when you needed it :)

It sounds like you are going through a very testing and trying time at the moment, which although not to the extent you are, we were too at the time of my dh's affair. We ended up both out of work, a huge mortgage etc, etc, but we got through it. We now live in a much more modest house, have one car instead of two and earn only half of what we did 6 years ago but I can now say we've survived and we've come through the other end and I'm sure you will too.

I pray that this spirit will continue to be there for you and will comfort you as and when you need them too.

~Carol~

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Sun, 01-15-2006 - 8:34pm
Spirits are comforting. I would also concentrte on diet, fish oil is good for SAD and depression.
Omega 3's are really good for that. No preservatives, go organic when possible. No processed foods.
I am a believer our diets can cause alll kinds of problems. I am not negating genetics. I am a
psyc nurse. Read about alkaline diets,
eats a lot of greens, keep positive. Love, leila
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Mon, 01-16-2006 - 12:28pm

I already take high doses of Omega 3 Fish Oil. I'm aware of the differences in quality, so take one of the better ones.

I haven't heard of an alkaline diet. I'll look that up. THANKS!

Steph


"In the first place, God made idiots. That was for practice. Then he made school boards."


-Mark Twain


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Registered: 12-20-2005
Tue, 01-17-2006 - 4:47pm

Steph,
I would say "go with your gut". If you feel this was Gramdma, then it was her. i have encountered many spirits along my Path and typically if they are a relative, they let you know (in my experience at least). This is very nice, she is comforting you and letting you know she is still there when you need her.

tavi